I don't know if I can do this whole, work/deal with pricks/pay for everything/be super fucking tired all the time/deal with drama for the rest of my life.
Let me just say, I had a really shitty day, and yet it wasn't even that bad, but things just got to me.
I'm running out of pot. My managers at work are on my fucking ass about everything and I didn't get to leave early today even though it was my turn to. I'm sick of the assholes who think they can come up and treat me like shit over icecream because I'm behind the counter. I'm sick of how unfair and shady things are at my job but I can't leave it because it's a job and right now I'm still young and living at home and that means I need to have a job so I can go out and play(according to my dad). I like being responsible and shit, but I'm just so tired right now.
Things have been shitty with my friends, my car is starting to break. Everything seems to be going wrong right now and I can't do anything but lay here and take it.
Today at wal-mart I was cashing my check and just looking around made me so upset. I don't want to do this my whole life. I don't want to live this boring life of working so I can have the right to live. My birthday is in 10 days and I'll only have one more year til I'm 18. Thank god. I just don't think my free soul will be able to handle this shit. I don't wanna be some depressed yuppie pushing a grocery cart to my depressed car so I can take food that I had to pay for so that I can live back to a depressed house. I'M SO DEPRESSED!!!
I feel so detached from school. I'm only there for 3 hours a day and do all my other classes online, but fucking christ, the kids there are just......boring. To them it's all about parties, and who's fucking who, and who's cheating on who and blah blah blah. I hate it. I just want to meet someone like me. A free spirit like me. I don't have any close friends really right now because my main girl just got a boyfriend and never talks to me anymore, all my other friends found other interests(like going to HARDCORE shows and hangin with the band all the time). No one just likes to chill and smoke and wonder and dream about things like I do.
The only thing keeping me happy right now is my art.
Damn, I don't mean to whine, but I just needed to get this shit off my chest. For some reason I like spilling my guts out to people who don't know me. It's just nice.
Let me just say, I had a really shitty day, and yet it wasn't even that bad, but things just got to me.
I'm running out of pot. My managers at work are on my fucking ass about everything and I didn't get to leave early today even though it was my turn to. I'm sick of the assholes who think they can come up and treat me like shit over icecream because I'm behind the counter. I'm sick of how unfair and shady things are at my job but I can't leave it because it's a job and right now I'm still young and living at home and that means I need to have a job so I can go out and play(according to my dad). I like being responsible and shit, but I'm just so tired right now.
Things have been shitty with my friends, my car is starting to break. Everything seems to be going wrong right now and I can't do anything but lay here and take it.
Today at wal-mart I was cashing my check and just looking around made me so upset. I don't want to do this my whole life. I don't want to live this boring life of working so I can have the right to live. My birthday is in 10 days and I'll only have one more year til I'm 18. Thank god. I just don't think my free soul will be able to handle this shit. I don't wanna be some depressed yuppie pushing a grocery cart to my depressed car so I can take food that I had to pay for so that I can live back to a depressed house. I'M SO DEPRESSED!!!
I feel so detached from school. I'm only there for 3 hours a day and do all my other classes online, but fucking christ, the kids there are just......boring. To them it's all about parties, and who's fucking who, and who's cheating on who and blah blah blah. I hate it. I just want to meet someone like me. A free spirit like me. I don't have any close friends really right now because my main girl just got a boyfriend and never talks to me anymore, all my other friends found other interests(like going to HARDCORE shows and hangin with the band all the time). No one just likes to chill and smoke and wonder and dream about things like I do.
The only thing keeping me happy right now is my art.
Damn, I don't mean to whine, but I just needed to get this shit off my chest. For some reason I like spilling my guts out to people who don't know me. It's just nice.