Charlie
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When I feel an itch, I scratch it. Not to make the itch go away, but because I perceive it to be an unpleasant sensation, and I scratch to cause more sensations which are not as unpleasant. Creating more sensations distracts me from the undesired sensation, and seems to make it less unpleasant. States of mind stimulates certain sensations (think of heartbreak or anger). Drinking also stimulates certain sensations (think of having the spins). Drinking can be thought of as scratching where certain states of mind (boredom, depression, anger, confusion, etc) can be thought of as an itch. The itch doesn't go away when it is scratched, but scratching it helps us forget it is there. Looking at how neurons and neurotransmitters work in a psychology book can explain this concept of scratching an itch.
Meditation has helped me become much more aware of sensations. As an addict, with this sharpened awareness, I have been able to feel some of the sensations that accompany different substances when I use them. I find that rather than focusing on the scratching as the problem, if I focus on my perception of the itch so that I don't perceive the itch as bad or good and just accept it and let it pass, I am no longer focusing on the scratching (although I crave it greatly out of habit). At that point I am simply observing the itch and how it feels, and eventually it goes away, as does my craving to scratch it.
Many say they drink to relax. Drinking is merely a means of coping (as is smoking in the same way). However, relaxation is a result of distracting one's self from what is causing tension to mimic solving cause of tension. Drinking is not a means of solving causes of tension, but merely giving more power to that tension by viewing that tension as undesirable and reacting as a means of distraction to distance one's self from tension and its cause. This creates a vicious cycle of problems and reactions. To break this cycle, it is crucial to learn new coping strategies to respond to causes of tension.
As for a twelve step program and the material covered and practiced there, some people need it more than others. My guitar instructor told me yesterday that I should consider becoming an understudy in a big band that focuses on jazz music. I have been having difficulty memorizing many chord patterns and he told me "Unless you are forced to use it, it becomes easy to become lazy and not practice it, which makes learning a much more slow, difficult, frustrating process." I think what he said could be applied to the 12 steps as well. If one has the initiative to practice those steps on their own and the insight to know what to do and how to do it, they may not need meetings. For those who need support to strengthen this initiative and insight, meetings are quite beneficial. Just as a bad habit is learned, to eradicate this bad habit requires learning as well.
But that's just my opinion, I could be wrong.
Meditation has helped me become much more aware of sensations. As an addict, with this sharpened awareness, I have been able to feel some of the sensations that accompany different substances when I use them. I find that rather than focusing on the scratching as the problem, if I focus on my perception of the itch so that I don't perceive the itch as bad or good and just accept it and let it pass, I am no longer focusing on the scratching (although I crave it greatly out of habit). At that point I am simply observing the itch and how it feels, and eventually it goes away, as does my craving to scratch it.
Many say they drink to relax. Drinking is merely a means of coping (as is smoking in the same way). However, relaxation is a result of distracting one's self from what is causing tension to mimic solving cause of tension. Drinking is not a means of solving causes of tension, but merely giving more power to that tension by viewing that tension as undesirable and reacting as a means of distraction to distance one's self from tension and its cause. This creates a vicious cycle of problems and reactions. To break this cycle, it is crucial to learn new coping strategies to respond to causes of tension.
As for a twelve step program and the material covered and practiced there, some people need it more than others. My guitar instructor told me yesterday that I should consider becoming an understudy in a big band that focuses on jazz music. I have been having difficulty memorizing many chord patterns and he told me "Unless you are forced to use it, it becomes easy to become lazy and not practice it, which makes learning a much more slow, difficult, frustrating process." I think what he said could be applied to the 12 steps as well. If one has the initiative to practice those steps on their own and the insight to know what to do and how to do it, they may not need meetings. For those who need support to strengthen this initiative and insight, meetings are quite beneficial. Just as a bad habit is learned, to eradicate this bad habit requires learning as well.
But that's just my opinion, I could be wrong.