IAteTheKittens
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I was thinking today how, today seemed to me, to be the end of a long hard road for me. I don't pretend to have it hard, I'm sure there are tons of people some of them on this site that have had it much harder. They haven't had loving parents or a comfortable place to sleep, they by and large have had to go through this life relying on the kindness of strangers and people in the same situation they found themselves in.
About a year ago maybe more at the beginning of 2008 I lost my car, since April of 07 I had been driving and enjoying every minute of it. I was really stupid though, during that time I got heavily addicted to benedryl. If you need to ask how just Google it. I was soon devouring packs upon packs to supplement the fact that I had no weed. Stupid but fun I didn't know that it would catch up to me. I got stopped several times under the influence and let me tell you that was the scariest thing i have ever experienced. i was tripping heavily one night,near delirious when I went to drive my car the half mile from my friends house only to almost hit a cop and allegedly run a red light. I could have sworn I sat there waiting for it.
Anyway this all for all the citations i acquired I was told to go to court to straighten it out. That morning was the middle of a big snow storm and I didn't go. I called the clerk and left a message then went back to bed. 2 weeks later I get a warrant in the mail for my arrest. That's when my license was suspended. Eventually my insurance lapsed because I failed to pay it. Now i understood how a person with no income could afford to drive a car.
Everyday I drove with fear that I would get caught, but if i got caught in town it was usually off to the garage, I'd pay them the 100 or so dollars and I'd get to drive home. I remember one day I was over my dealers house and he was in his car on his laptop looking up girls on my space. Well it was then that I figured since i had a car I thought it was time to get me a girl. At the time I was in to older women so I trolled for 40 somethings.
Before long I found one and we progressed to talking all the time. To fast forward on the eve of our first date I drove out to meet her at a movie theater in a town about an hr away that i had never been too. I eventually got stopped by the cops for making a wrong turn and then the truth was out. My car was towed to a garage about 2 hrs from my house and that was the end of my driving days.
For the next 8 months i got high as my mother prepared to move from our apartment to another one, me being without my car caused me to have to live with her, I was going to live in my car,not anymore. Well after a long while I got my license straightened out I had my day in court twice, for 2 separate suspended license offenses one in ct and one in ma. At the end of it I only payed about 120 bucks, I also had to take a driver reeducation course.
3 weeks after i lost the car I threatened to kill myself and was sent to the loony bin for a day. There my mom bless her heart kicked it into overdrive and not only got my grandmother to go and pick up my car 2 hrs from her house but to pay the 300 it took to get it out of the garage, I almost let the garage have it. I had no way to get it out
Now after all this time, After losing my job of 2 1/2 years at a bakery, after breaking my ankle therefore terminating my employment. After moving finally to a brand new town and starting a brand new job at a grocery store where everyone is so nice to me, Ive hit the last step. All i need to do now is save up enough to get my car back on the road.
I'm almost back on top.
So to celebrate, Tonight in honor of my first pay check, I got a six pack of Smirnoff ice and I watched my favorite movie. Tomorrow I'm hoping to hit my supervisor up for some weed, since i found out she smokes and I'm moving out into the woods finally to be on my own. I am rebuilding my life. Its funny when i lost my car, I said to myself with a sigh, "whew its gonna be a long road" and it was. It couldve been a lot shorter if I hadn't been so stupid or bothered to save up money instead of buying so much weed before i lost my job.
The bad memories of that night no longer haunt me, I haven't done benedryl in at least 2 weeks and I have decided to fight for my future. Thats my whole story. thank you
About a year ago maybe more at the beginning of 2008 I lost my car, since April of 07 I had been driving and enjoying every minute of it. I was really stupid though, during that time I got heavily addicted to benedryl. If you need to ask how just Google it. I was soon devouring packs upon packs to supplement the fact that I had no weed. Stupid but fun I didn't know that it would catch up to me. I got stopped several times under the influence and let me tell you that was the scariest thing i have ever experienced. i was tripping heavily one night,near delirious when I went to drive my car the half mile from my friends house only to almost hit a cop and allegedly run a red light. I could have sworn I sat there waiting for it.
Anyway this all for all the citations i acquired I was told to go to court to straighten it out. That morning was the middle of a big snow storm and I didn't go. I called the clerk and left a message then went back to bed. 2 weeks later I get a warrant in the mail for my arrest. That's when my license was suspended. Eventually my insurance lapsed because I failed to pay it. Now i understood how a person with no income could afford to drive a car.
Everyday I drove with fear that I would get caught, but if i got caught in town it was usually off to the garage, I'd pay them the 100 or so dollars and I'd get to drive home. I remember one day I was over my dealers house and he was in his car on his laptop looking up girls on my space. Well it was then that I figured since i had a car I thought it was time to get me a girl. At the time I was in to older women so I trolled for 40 somethings.
Before long I found one and we progressed to talking all the time. To fast forward on the eve of our first date I drove out to meet her at a movie theater in a town about an hr away that i had never been too. I eventually got stopped by the cops for making a wrong turn and then the truth was out. My car was towed to a garage about 2 hrs from my house and that was the end of my driving days.
For the next 8 months i got high as my mother prepared to move from our apartment to another one, me being without my car caused me to have to live with her, I was going to live in my car,not anymore. Well after a long while I got my license straightened out I had my day in court twice, for 2 separate suspended license offenses one in ct and one in ma. At the end of it I only payed about 120 bucks, I also had to take a driver reeducation course.
3 weeks after i lost the car I threatened to kill myself and was sent to the loony bin for a day. There my mom bless her heart kicked it into overdrive and not only got my grandmother to go and pick up my car 2 hrs from her house but to pay the 300 it took to get it out of the garage, I almost let the garage have it. I had no way to get it out
Now after all this time, After losing my job of 2 1/2 years at a bakery, after breaking my ankle therefore terminating my employment. After moving finally to a brand new town and starting a brand new job at a grocery store where everyone is so nice to me, Ive hit the last step. All i need to do now is save up enough to get my car back on the road.
I'm almost back on top.
So to celebrate, Tonight in honor of my first pay check, I got a six pack of Smirnoff ice and I watched my favorite movie. Tomorrow I'm hoping to hit my supervisor up for some weed, since i found out she smokes and I'm moving out into the woods finally to be on my own. I am rebuilding my life. Its funny when i lost my car, I said to myself with a sigh, "whew its gonna be a long road" and it was. It couldve been a lot shorter if I hadn't been so stupid or bothered to save up money instead of buying so much weed before i lost my job.
The bad memories of that night no longer haunt me, I haven't done benedryl in at least 2 weeks and I have decided to fight for my future. Thats my whole story. thank you
