one more year... one more.. just one more... onemoreFUCKINGYEAR

M

Mouse

I deleted myself
I think I might snap before then.

one more year til probation is done
one more year til I get my license back
one more year til I'm done with school (kinda)
one more year til I finish my medical treatment (god willing it works)
one more year til I have enough money to get wheels

Dear STP people... help me keep my sanity! This purgatory seems like it will never end.



forgive me,but this feeling of clautsrophobic doom just won't go away.

a year is a long time to behave yourself and watch your every move and save every penny and work your ass off and not have any fun whatsoever.

/rant
 

RebeccaSoup

Newbie
Joined
Feb 13, 2009
Messages
100
Current Location
Places
I envy your responsibility. I'm somebodies mom and I cant even stay in one place for that long. No worries though... These months will fly. Recession is exciting.

Sit back and watch capitalism crash around you.
 

ray beez

Lurker
Joined
Apr 13, 2009
Messages
38
Current Location
verginny
i can relate to your fustration, i have to get shit done around here before i can leave to travel. i too have to get my license, move out of my parents place, and get mo monies. i can barely stand my job anymore, the weather is fucking beautiful and i want to go south with a passion, all the music festivals are happening, but i cant get off work to go to them. and my money is being sucked dry from various expenses. its a bitch, but i understand. im trying to keep myself busy with crafts and side projects, junk like that,but im still restless and find myself daydreaming about walking out of this town and not stopping till i get to texas. you'll make it through. it wont be too much longer till everything works itself out. good luck mouse!
 

Poe Boy

Newbie
Joined
Jan 18, 2009
Messages
63
Sounds contagious.

I kinda got fucked over by my family, left for broke, having 3, maybe 4 surgeries in the last year (have to go ion Aug 5th to see if I need a follow-up. If it goes like last year, I'll be in the hole until March paying the hospital bills, then I can START to unfuck my life.

I'm thinking about being a bastard about it this time. I get fucked bailing family out of their crises, and there's no sorrow, no remorse, no feeling of bad, just questions on why I don't do more for them. I think this time around I'm going to let them crash and burn and make sure I have my shit together in my life for once.
 
OP
M

Mouse

I deleted myself
i think I may be the one sucking the "life" out of my family. lol. I'm not exactly up to their standards. I've got a 4.0 and a full time job and I still get SHIT for getting drunk once in a while because I've had soem legal problems and I'm "sick". pfft assholes.

I try to get myself into projects but sometimes I just feel like it all so fucking pointless. I guess I'm just a lil bit in a rut or something. summer kinda gets that way. no classes and I get antsy and want to run.

but once I get all this shit worked out I'll be totally set for having my world back to how I want it. my family will probably want to kill me, again, buuut that's their issues not mine.

thanks for helping me feel not so alone in this hole. :) sometimes I get al bummed thinking about how my old friends are so far away and having grand old times hitching around and living the life. It gets to ya.

I do plan trips to see people every few months. something to anticipate helps the weeks pass. I'm going to best friends day next month. that's my next big venture. gonna get drunk at the river and forget I have a job for a few days :) :)
 

Angela

Wandering But Not Lost Yet
Joined
May 25, 2008
Messages
417
Current Location
Housedup
Hang in there, I may be guilty here of sounding like an old fart for saying this but a year really does pass awfully quick.
 
OP
M

Mouse

I deleted myself
you're right it really does BUT at times it just gets to be a bit much. mostly the constantly having to watch my back and live in fear that if I get in trouble the time will be that much longer that freaks me out. I feel like I should just lock myself ina room and pray until it's all over lol. I break the law on a daily basis when I ride my scooter to work.. I'm not legally able to drive ANYTHING but you gotta work, ya know?
 

About us

  • Squat the Planet is the world's largest social network for misfit travelers. Join our community of do-it-yourself nomads and learn how to explore the world by any means necessary.

    More Info

Support StP!

Donations go towards paying our monthly server fees, adding new features to the website, and occasionally putting a burrito in Matt's mouth.

Total amount
$100.00
Goal
$100.00

Monthly Goals

  1. Paying the Bills
    $50.00 of $50.00 - reached!
    The first $50 in donations go towards paying our monthly server fees and adding new features to the website. Once this goal is reached, we'll see about feeding Matt that burrito.
  2. Buy Matt a Beer
    $75.00 of $75.00 - reached!
    Now that we have the bills paid for this month, let's give Matt a hearty thank you by buying him a drink for all the hard work he's done for StP. Hopefully his will help keep him from going insane after a long day of squishing website bugs.
  3. Feed Matt a Burrito
    $100.00 of $100.00 - reached!
    Now that the bills are paid and Matt has a beer in his hand, how about showing him your love by rewarding all his hard work with a big fat burrito to put in his mouth. This will keep him alive while programming new features for the website.
  4. Finance the Shopping Cart
    $100.00 of $200.00
    Now that the bills are paid and Matt is fed, perhaps it's time to start planning for those twilight years under the bridge... if only he had that golden shopping cart all the oogles are bragging about these days.

Latest Status Updates

Trying to decide between colorado and portland.
In Winslow, AZ, and then on to Holbrook, with the Box. Anyone around these parts?
Takin a break from work to head up to Laramie for a few days to play some shows this weekend. Thank fuck, I need this.
BirdDaddy wrote on Tommythecat's profile.
Welcome to STP man!
BirdDaddy wrote on jypzi's profile.
You deleted you?
ALmost to Vegas, and I started getting dizzy

I am not made for the ruggedness of traveling all the time

Adieu
My eyes are A okay!!! I guess floaters squiggly lines heat waves flashing lights cloudy and blurred vision are normal...I guess. It's new to me, and realy hard tk.get use to. I have had better than perfact vision my entire life. I still do too, I just have shit in my field of vision somtimes nowadays I guess
Just did my first single handed sailing trip. Video to come if I can figure out how to edit video clips

Staff online

About us

  • Squat the Planet is the world's largest social network for misfit travelers. Join our community of do-it-yourself nomads and learn how to explore the world by any means necessary.

    More Info

Monthly Goals

  1. Paying the Bills
    $50.00 of $50.00 - reached!
    The first $50 in donations go towards paying our monthly server fees and adding new features to the website. Once this goal is reached, we'll see about feeding Matt that burrito.
  2. Buy Matt a Beer
    $75.00 of $75.00 - reached!
    Now that we have the bills paid for this month, let's give Matt a hearty thank you by buying him a drink for all the hard work he's done for StP. Hopefully his will help keep him from going insane after a long day of squishing website bugs.
  3. Feed Matt a Burrito
    $100.00 of $100.00 - reached!
    Now that the bills are paid and Matt has a beer in his hand, how about showing him your love by rewarding all his hard work with a big fat burrito to put in his mouth. This will keep him alive while programming new features for the website.
  4. Finance the Shopping Cart
    $100.00 of $200.00
    Now that the bills are paid and Matt is fed, perhaps it's time to start planning for those twilight years under the bridge... if only he had that golden shopping cart all the oogles are bragging about these days.

Forum Statistics

Threads
23,980
Messages
218,931
Members
8,737
Threads in last 24 hours
6
Messages in last 24 hours
59
Members in last 30 days
972
Latest member
Defecatingspangers