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kokomojoe
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So I've been thinking about it a lot recently and have come to the realization that drinking does nothing good for me. When I really step back and think about it logically, I just can't reason that it's worth it. And it's not even strictly about the health aspects of it either, although that should be enough reason in itself. I'm really not any happier by drinking. The thought about having some beers and just relaxing or having a good time sounds nice initially but, I know that it rarely ever works out that way. What actually happens is I just keep drinking until I'm miserable or passed out. It's like there's never a point where I'm satisfied with the level of intoxication and just say I'm done. I either end up fighting with someone or just pissing someone off. There have been other times where I come close to pulling a knife on someone. It's always fun up to a certain point yet the end is always the same. I'll get kicked out of places or just do something that makes me not want to return. The amount of money I spend on it is stupid, puking and shitting my brains out is stupid, getting arrested and going to jail for it is stupid, and not having a grip over something so trivial is stupid. It's no longer something that's a release or a distraction from thoughts I'd rather neglect. Rather, it's just a draining, monotonous activity. Maybe I'll end up going back to it but whenever I get the craving lately I just recall how it's done nothing for me. When I follow the thoughts, the logic of not doing it, it seems so obvious and when I neglect them and just follow the crave, the feeling, it just doesn't make sense. It's like I knew this the whole time I had been doing it yet somehow it's only become this clear to me now. All the bad times from it have just added up to this giant sign that says fuck this. There have been several occasions where I've wanted to quit and don't and I'm hoping that this isn't another one of those times.
Not intending for this to be preachy or anything. If you drink, whatever it makes no difference to me. Several people I know can drink and have a good time and know when to stop. I guess I'm not one of those people. Just figured I'd write this on the chance it could benefit someone else.
Not intending for this to be preachy or anything. If you drink, whatever it makes no difference to me. Several people I know can drink and have a good time and know when to stop. I guess I'm not one of those people. Just figured I'd write this on the chance it could benefit someone else.