It's me, again.
Now I want to talk about your own receil stand-point of having sex with the locals and long-stayer travelers in any areas that you pass through. Not in a way that passes judgement on others, mind you. Just your views on it, if you do it and why. If you don't do it, and why? If you thought about it. Anything on the subject matter.
This subject is very much inspired by the sexual desires of locals towards me (mostly homebums, as that's what I'm mostly around) and my desires towards other long stayer travelers. For the record, I'm using "homebum" as a term for ALL homeless locals, not just the street ones. It's the the shelter, and program homeless locals, as well.
As stated I don't mind being attracted to another long stayer. Homebums are as they are, and I don't have sex with them because they are all at the lowest point in their life no matter what's going on. There's the obvious that some of them are flat out disgusting, but even the more clean ones are morally distorted. Every local that falls for me expresses how "unique" and "brave" I am for traveling. Naturally, some accuse me of being "unstable" but that doesn't stop them from wanting to try to tame me. I mean "tame" in a long term area, too.
I get to know the people and the community, and I make it clear that I'm here to party platonically, but I find some people just don't have any respect for that. On the other end, I become attracted to someone. They turn me down. I'm so sad about it because with all the attention I get from the lower crowd I don't getting any attention from someone I want and respect. I find out the person isn't as cool as I thought they were anyway, and I'm relieved we didn't have sex.
I've also been attracted to more male/ men, recently. I don't like being attracted to men, in the first place. And, I live in a society where men are suppose to be sex crazed animals, and yet none of the men I want will have sex with me. Isn't that something? I already know who I am and am not willing to have sex with, but I'm no where near interested in any role in rape. I'm accepting my situation.
sounds like the overwrought musings of a virgin.
just fuck somebody for fun and you'll see its not nearly the big deal you're making it out to be. or you could keep bogarting your sexuality like a precious jewel and stay frustrated.