This reckless spirit of mine

[shea]

I want to dive head first into the volcano that is my fucked up head. Im on the 2 months work 2 months play life style. I think im addicted to it. Part of me wants to be a contributing, decent member of society, but eventually greed takes control. My desire for freedom consumes me. I can blame the system. Say that this life of materialism and credit cards isnt fulfilling enough for me. View everyone in it as trapped, distracted by money and media. Then go off on my next odyssey. But who am i to say the world you live in is bullshit. Im the one with the problem. I need more simply because i cant love. I cant trust. I cant value a relationship enough to even send a postcard once i've left you in the dust. Im a cold person. Admit-ably fearless when it comes to solo travel. The things i've done in this life, and never even spoke of to good friends. Unfortunately i don't consider that humble. I often feel like a narcissistic a hole thats better off alone. Superior in the sense that i've seen some shit. Any means necessary just to survive. Ive gotten used to a life outside my comfort zone And well its true my desires are beyond material, its foolish of me to think a Thailand adventure will solve these underlying problems. Ahh fuck. This brain of mine. What do you guys think? Am i doomed to a reckless life of adventure. Or should i focus on trying to fill the hole in my heart with dating and friendships. And by the way, im only 21. I don't even have facial hair yet!

 

[EphemeralStick]

Interesting post, it's good to make your acquaintance. However the Making a Living sub forum is for posting and discussing methods to make money where as this thread seems better suited for the Introduction section. I'm going to go ahead and move it there.

Welcome to the site! And hey no worries, I didn't start growing facial hair until I was 25.

 

[sd40chef]

I want to dive head first into the volcano that is my fucked up head. Im on the 2 months work 2 months play life style. I think im addicted to it. Part of me wants to be a contributing, decent member of society, but eventually greed takes control. My desire for freedom consumes me. I can blame the system. Say that this life of materialism and credit cards isnt fulfilling enough for me. View everyone in it as trapped, distracted by money and media. Then go off on my next odyssey. But who am i to say the world you live in is bullshit. Im the one with the problem. I need more simply because i cant love. I cant trust. I cant value a relationship enough to even send a postcard once i've left you in the dust. Im a cold person. Admit-ably fearless when it comes to solo travel. The things i've done in this life, and never even spoke of to good friends. Unfortunately i don't consider that humble. I often feel like a narcissistic a hole thats better off alone. Superior in the sense that i've seen some shit. Any means necessary just to survive. Ive gotten used to a life outside my comfort zone And well its true my desires are beyond material, its foolish of me to think a Thailand adventure will solve these underlying problems. Ahh fuck. This brain of mine. What do you guys think? Am i doomed to a reckless life of adventure. Or should i focus on trying to fill the hole in my heart with dating and friendships. And by the way, im only 21. I don't even have facial hair yet!

sounds like you are honest to yourself. a long road ahead but you are on the right one by the sounds of it....gratitude is king

 

[Whereamiwhatdoido]

Life's enivitable soothing your travelling spirit, just be in it and live it as long as you can, marriage and children will come for you when life deems you needed for that part of your adventure! You're not doomed my friend, you're alive. Sounds like a blast into a broadminded livehood, keep on friend ::drinkingbuddy::