Adjusting back to normal life

[Johny]

I recently just got into a relationship and housed up after four years on the road solid .
I was wondering if anyone else has ever had problems adjusting back to normal life and food and relationships.
Like I don't feel I fit in with anyone , it feels weird staying in one place and food upsets my stomach .
I haven't unpacked my pack in two months and I still sleep with a knife.
I've been stressed beyond belief and just on edge.
I guess I'm a little ruff around the edges and have a quick temper now and it just feels strange doing family things and being around kids and doing family activities ect.
Trying to adjust and trying to hold on to this relationship , but IDK if I've actually hanged so much that I'm doomed to just drift forever.
I've traveled most of my life on and off but four years solid was my longest trip.
I was around a ton of drugs death murder and just shady ppl and now I just look at everyone like there trying to lie or steal even if there not .
Kind of looking for a way to turn it off and don't know how

 

[travelingheathen]

No Dr. Phil here, but learning to trust again is a real bitch.

 

[Johny]

Yeah man, everything is way tuffer than I thought.
Of course I didn't mean to be out for four years either

 

[travelingheathen]

Right on. Life is tough in any sense; on the road, in the woods, on the street, housed up. No matter the environment in which we dwell it seems the trait we all here have in common is the ability to adapt to the situation.

 

[Johny]

I've always been good at that

 

[DuHastMich]

It's a bitch decompressing after that long on the road. Hell, it was fucked up for me when I was beating the backroads in my 20s and would come off the road for a few months to gather some money.

Keep your mind as occupied as possible. Even if you're doing menial shit like washing dishes, researching for your next venture or working some day labor, keeping yourself busy and making each day different will help you adjust from road life to tied-up life.

 

[Johny]

It's a bitch decompressing after that long on the road. Hell, it was fucked up for me when I was beating the backroads in my 20s and would come off the road for a few months to gather some money.

Keep your mind as occupied as possible. Even if you're doing menial shit like washing dishes, researching for your next venture or working some day labor, keeping yourself busy and making each day different will help you adjust from road life to tied-up life.

 

[Deleted member 14481]

Things don't have to happen in a hurry. It sounds like your stressed out and anxious. Is it really just decompressing from traveling for so long, or are there deeper concerns?

 

[Johny]

Well I have both , just got contacted by my son after 18 years this week and going through some relationship stuff.
Plus I've had anxiety PTSD and depression since 1997 .
There is allot going on

 

[MetalBryan]

Volunteering locally in some way helping people living rough will give you an opportunity to feel useful. Maybe you'll form connections with people you have more in common with than the "new life" folks you're worrying about.

 

[Dayoldpizza]

Transitioning even for a few months in a housing situation to long term can be a mental struggle.. since seeing the system of class separation all over being on foot & labeled as a transient makes it easy to feel trapped. Usually it's when looking for a job, just remember society's mind games are real, placing you low on the totem pole for work,housing & a low self esteem/self worth from the monetary system. Do not let this strategy fool you ...that's how they win.
Keep your self busy, ride a bicycle, read books,art projects, make wheat paste posters, silkscreen, garden etc etc ... heavily recommend a way to exert energy.
Good luck

 

[Johny]

Volunteering locally in some way helping people living rough will give you an opportunity to feel useful. Maybe you'll form connections with people you have more in common with than the "new life" folks you're worrying about.

The new life folks I'm worried about are the woman I'm engaged to and her kids

 

[Johny]

Transitioning even for a few months in a housing situation to long term can be a mental struggle.. since seeing the system of class separation all over being on foot & labeled as a transient makes it easy to feel trapped. Usually it's when looking for a job, just remember society's mind games are real, placing you low on the totem pole for work,housing & a low self esteem/self worth from the monetary system. Do not let this strategy fool you ...that's how they win.
Keep your self busy, ride a bicycle, read books,art projects, make wheat paste posters, silkscreen, garden etc etc ... heavily recommend a way to exert energy.
Good luck

I'm wanting to start playing bass again and all I have right now is video games lol

 

[Coywolf]

Did you ever hop freight? Railfanning might be a good hobby to keep you out there but still be able to go home at night.

I'm fucking weirded out every season when I go back to work and get housed up. But I know I can get back out there again.

This was my BIGGEST fear when I started traveling. That I would get accustomed, and addicted. It happened. I'm gonna roll with it....

 

[Johny]

Did you ever hop freight? Railfannig might be a good hobby to keep you out there but still be able to go home at night.

I'm fucking weirded out every season when I go back to work and get housed up. But I know I can get back out there again.

This was my BIGGEST fear when I started traveling. That I would get accustomed, and addicted. It happened. I'm gonna roll with it....

Oh yeah I hopped lol

 

[OBIWAN616]

I am sentenced to a job and live at a halfway house, and yes THEY WILL get you from anywhere, I know from experience, I could never live a "normal" life unless sentenced by a court of law with prison time over my head, once you live the life of freedom, why ever go back??????????

 

[Johny]

I feel you are right [QUO

I am sentenced to a job and live at a halfway house, and yes THEY WILL get you from anywhere, I know from experience, I could never live a "normal" life unless sentenced by a court of law with prison time over my head, once you live the life of freedom, why ever go back??????????

TE="OBIWAN616, post: 265418, member: 23478"]I am sentenced to a job and live at a halfway house, and yes THEY WILL get you from anywhere, I know from experience, I could never live a "normal" life unless sentenced by a court of law with prison time over my head, once you live the life of freedom, why ever go back??????????[/QUOTE]

 

[Johny]

Oh yeah I hopped lol

 

[Johny]

Man i think I'm loosing my fucking mind , seriously thinking of ditching house girl kids job and hopping west again

 

[Dmac]

Hope it gets better for you. I find getting stoned helps with being housed up.