okay, so as some of you know, i've been making plans for the past several months to go to a computer programming school in portland. my plan was to attend these classes until the end of the year, then work for most of 2015 saving up money for everything i needed for the stp youtube project i've been working on. the plan also had the added benefit of giving me a broader skill set to use so that i could work for myself as a freelance programmer, thus being able to further finance my future travels.
well, all that came crashing down the other day when i got an email from the school saying they were increasing the cost of the deposit by $500 (from $1,000 to $1,500) and switching from doing their own financing (payment plans) to having a financial loan company do it for them. meaning that this big loan company was going to have to put me through a credit check that there was no way in hell i was going to pass, due to my terrible credit.
now keep in mind i got this email thirteen days before classes start. the phrase complete and utter bullshit doesn't really seem to do it justice. i've had several meetings with them, attending some pre-classes, and every step of the way (over the past FOUR MONTHS) I'd been told that I'd be able to make payments to them (not a loan company), and reassured that they'd work with me and that the prices weren't going to change, but in the end they changed pretty much everything they told me right before classes begin. who the fuck does that?
So, no school, cause I can't afford it.
The sad thing is, this is the second programming school that pulled this kinda shit on me this year. The first was when I applied to Code Fellows in Seattle, who (long story short) pretty much completely misrepresented how much previous coding experience you needed to apply, but didn't tell me that of course until i'd been waiting around for 3 months for them to get back to me on my application.
So, this has all been happening with the background of me being stuck at my parent's house at the age of 35, which is pretty fucking sad. I came out here in October of 2013, and with the exception of a brief jaunt to Austin for 2-3 months (and working with what turned out to be wingnut christians) I've been stuck here in the middle of nowhere with no friends, and sitting on my ass for almost a year now just getting fatter and sicker (i have gout and when i don't exercise/eat well it gets really bad and my parents are the farthest thing from vegitarian) and more depressed.
All I wanna do in life is travel, but I really don't want to be a fucking bum anymore. I don't want to be 40 and still living under bridges. Fuck that, that's insane, and I'm way too smart for that shit. And that's why I've been trying to find some kind of career that I can use to finance my traveling, which makes it just that much more frustrating that it hasn't worked out so far, and I kinda feel like I've wasted the past year of my life.
All I want is to be exploring some place cool and interesting, have a travel blog of some kind, and do the goddamn youtube travel show i've been thinking about for the past 6 fucking years now. the problem is that i don't ever have enough money to do any of this (money for cameras, needed film equipment), so i end up floating around in circles wasting years of my life not getting any closer to any of my goals, and keep chasing this impossible dream i have (that isn't really all that expensive, maybe 5k? i just have terrible luck with jobs over the past few years).
So here I am again, floundering and wondering what the hell to do. It would be so easy if I wanted to settle down somewhere, but I don't. Although I'm almost bored to tears of the USA, I don't really know how to get the money to afford to get out of here, and move on with my life.
Sorry if i haven't replied to some of your messages, I've just been bummed out over this school thing and trying to figure out what the fuck to do with my life now that the next year and half's worth of plans have been dashed away.
well, all that came crashing down the other day when i got an email from the school saying they were increasing the cost of the deposit by $500 (from $1,000 to $1,500) and switching from doing their own financing (payment plans) to having a financial loan company do it for them. meaning that this big loan company was going to have to put me through a credit check that there was no way in hell i was going to pass, due to my terrible credit.
now keep in mind i got this email thirteen days before classes start. the phrase complete and utter bullshit doesn't really seem to do it justice. i've had several meetings with them, attending some pre-classes, and every step of the way (over the past FOUR MONTHS) I'd been told that I'd be able to make payments to them (not a loan company), and reassured that they'd work with me and that the prices weren't going to change, but in the end they changed pretty much everything they told me right before classes begin. who the fuck does that?
So, no school, cause I can't afford it.
The sad thing is, this is the second programming school that pulled this kinda shit on me this year. The first was when I applied to Code Fellows in Seattle, who (long story short) pretty much completely misrepresented how much previous coding experience you needed to apply, but didn't tell me that of course until i'd been waiting around for 3 months for them to get back to me on my application.
So, this has all been happening with the background of me being stuck at my parent's house at the age of 35, which is pretty fucking sad. I came out here in October of 2013, and with the exception of a brief jaunt to Austin for 2-3 months (and working with what turned out to be wingnut christians) I've been stuck here in the middle of nowhere with no friends, and sitting on my ass for almost a year now just getting fatter and sicker (i have gout and when i don't exercise/eat well it gets really bad and my parents are the farthest thing from vegitarian) and more depressed.
All I wanna do in life is travel, but I really don't want to be a fucking bum anymore. I don't want to be 40 and still living under bridges. Fuck that, that's insane, and I'm way too smart for that shit. And that's why I've been trying to find some kind of career that I can use to finance my traveling, which makes it just that much more frustrating that it hasn't worked out so far, and I kinda feel like I've wasted the past year of my life.
All I want is to be exploring some place cool and interesting, have a travel blog of some kind, and do the goddamn youtube travel show i've been thinking about for the past 6 fucking years now. the problem is that i don't ever have enough money to do any of this (money for cameras, needed film equipment), so i end up floating around in circles wasting years of my life not getting any closer to any of my goals, and keep chasing this impossible dream i have (that isn't really all that expensive, maybe 5k? i just have terrible luck with jobs over the past few years).
So here I am again, floundering and wondering what the hell to do. It would be so easy if I wanted to settle down somewhere, but I don't. Although I'm almost bored to tears of the USA, I don't really know how to get the money to afford to get out of here, and move on with my life.
Sorry if i haven't replied to some of your messages, I've just been bummed out over this school thing and trying to figure out what the fuck to do with my life now that the next year and half's worth of plans have been dashed away.