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JoseCualquier
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If y'all would permit me to whine for a moment. I was applying to grad schools, but it's not looking good for various reasons. I was thinking I should just focus on writing projects, but after a few months of doing that, I'd be out on my ass. I'm lucky enough to have a degree, but it has been far from the great equalizer everyone said it would be. True, my jobs pay better than they used to, but I'm still in a position where I'm always scrambling for something new (contract ends, boss asks me to do sketchy shit, some supervisor decides they don't like me). I'm sort of stuck spinning my wheels. Part of me says I should tough it out as long as I can. Sure, may be one day I won't have a choice in the matter, but so far I've managed to keep a roof over my head. I know a few people who'd prefer to have my set up. At the same time, I just get so sick and tired of spinning my wheels all the time and having nothing to show for it. It all feel like its dangling at the edge of a cliff. Real sword of Damocles type shit. May be one day I'll catch a break, but I'm really worried that I'm just gonna keep telling myself that, and end up playing out the same shit until I'm too old for anything but regrets. I hope it gets better, wouldn't mind if it got worse, but I can't keep doing this.