Wow.
I guess I'm one of a kind.
I've been using almost as long as I've been smokin bud (16 Bud, 18ish otherwise), and (I attribute and thank RPGs and my "immaturity" - what others call me holding on to my Personality, perceptions, Ideals, Code of Honor, and Morals I swore at 8 years old to NEVER lose) I don't steal (made an oath at 21 that I've kept since - was stealin for bud/fun), and am not shady in any way (I do act like a 10 year old most of the time). I have left a LOT half-finished, tho...I can put it down for months at a time...but if anything (besides H - didn't like it) that alters my mind (and keeps me from sleeping - I hate sleeping!) comes freely, I'm doin it!
I take Karma and my Virtues VERY seriously (see my signature, it's the fabric of my behavioral universe), so as long as I continue to live by the credo "Karma provides" everything will turn out fine. As long as I keep up my Good Deeds, NEVER lie, and continue to live up to my Virtues...Karma will Provide.
It's my motto.
Now, I have been known to have flashbacks of being EXTREMELY lonely/scared due to MANY people screwing me over (taking my childish personality as weakness, I am also putting the things done to me VERY lightly) for YEARS (I kept going back cause I HATE - still now - being alone) repeatedly. Those attacks are rare, and copious amounts of bud keep those emotions in check (I have been known to spontaneously BAWL uncontrollably for HOURS if I don't smoke bud over a 48 to 72-hour period). As soon as I sleep, those emotions lessen (like boiling water cooling down) for a while.
I'm proud to be Junkie with a Code.