So I have been going through this little rollercoaster as I posted before about. I really believe it stems from the cocaine and drinking I was doing with a family member in a time when I needed quiet and sober days, on top of generalized anxiety that I was pushing down with the drugs and under the table anxiety pills. chemical interaction what have you, mixed with my already imbalanced chemicals.
So I've been dealing with the ups and downs, ups and downs, which are hard but i will prevail as i talk to others, this can last quite some time months and months. I realize too through this hard time that i believe I have always had generalized anxiety, depressive times, basically sort of a mental illness that has risen in me probably once a year, Every few years for a longer period of time. Its a bitch at times and i think back to the times it has affected me for no real reason at all. -Wanting to get home when on the road, due to loneliness and familiarity and family, anxiety etc. Now it has progressed etc and really has been a battle, no suicidal thoughts really, but I'm i guess I'm asking if anyone else deals and what do you do? Especially for getting back into travel. I’ve been sleeping inside for the time I’ve been dealing. Because I think if I was outside urban I’d really struggle with it. Till I get past this long slog. What do you do for triggers? For me now it’s little closed spaces a bit or too close quarters what have you. Or excessive conversation of one sidedness.
So I've been dealing with the ups and downs, ups and downs, which are hard but i will prevail as i talk to others, this can last quite some time months and months. I realize too through this hard time that i believe I have always had generalized anxiety, depressive times, basically sort of a mental illness that has risen in me probably once a year, Every few years for a longer period of time. Its a bitch at times and i think back to the times it has affected me for no real reason at all. -Wanting to get home when on the road, due to loneliness and familiarity and family, anxiety etc. Now it has progressed etc and really has been a battle, no suicidal thoughts really, but I'm i guess I'm asking if anyone else deals and what do you do? Especially for getting back into travel. I’ve been sleeping inside for the time I’ve been dealing. Because I think if I was outside urban I’d really struggle with it. Till I get past this long slog. What do you do for triggers? For me now it’s little closed spaces a bit or too close quarters what have you. Or excessive conversation of one sidedness.
