Generalized Anxiety (1 Viewer)


Dec 24, 2010
Current Location
Potter County PA
So I have been going through this little rollercoaster as I posted before about. I really believe it stems from the cocaine and drinking I was doing with a family member in a time when I needed quiet and sober days, on top of generalized anxiety that I was pushing down with the drugs and under the table anxiety pills. chemical interaction what have you, mixed with my already imbalanced chemicals.
So I've been dealing with the ups and downs, ups and downs, which are hard but i will prevail as i talk to others, this can last quite some time months and months. I realize too through this hard time that i believe I have always had generalized anxiety, depressive times, basically sort of a mental illness that has risen in me probably once a year, Every few years for a longer period of time. Its a bitch at times and i think back to the times it has affected me for no real reason at all. -Wanting to get home when on the road, due to loneliness and familiarity and family, anxiety etc. Now it has progressed etc and really has been a battle, no suicidal thoughts really, but I'm i guess I'm asking if anyone else deals and what do you do? Especially for getting back into travel. I’ve been sleeping inside for the time I’ve been dealing. Because I think if I was outside urban I’d really struggle with it. Till I get past this long slog. What do you do for triggers? For me now it’s little closed spaces a bit or too close quarters what have you. Or excessive conversation of one sidedness.
Click here to buy the Anarchist's Guide to Travel!


plastic wingnut in a microwave
Sep 23, 2009
Current Location
folks who know me have my #.
WTF, man..?

why should you be uptight about *caring* for things...?


ok.. so you're fucking powerless.

deal with it, or join the goddamned taliban, right?



you don't like being a slave.
well that fucking sucks, doesn't it?

you **may** or ****may
be able to keep your ass fed & sheltered *****IF******






holy fuck...



(o, O God, fuck)

not willingly.. but of a necessity we would will to, rather than hate with blood against
& thus for peace

& the weakness of desiring

what little percentage of freedom might be had..

subject yourself to their inanities

in the hopes they will count your thraldom sufficient...

& that there, at that point,

you shall be left the Fuck


Ha HA ha ha HAAAA,


it really fucking sucks, doesn't it?

to be willing to die

to have peace..


but not being able to die enough...

Christ Holy Fuck Almighty...

when all we have are nails & shitty crowbars & blunted hammer tongs

they might see...

when we charge, not the cubicles, but the High Windows
where they speak openly...

where they spend $3000 a day in a space they use perhaps 20 hours a week..

when we charge

.. all shall be at ground level...

kill them.

fucking kill them.

they kill us all.

they even kill themselves, trying to prove their lives are more than any others...

they are strange..

they do not know how life differs from the mere mechanics of simple thermodynamics..

they believe they *are* more
because they *percieve* more..

& i pity them, because they damn themselves by constantly claiming

Oh, Christ..

please fucking save us..

Kill them or save theme..

but please goddamned get them out of the fucking picture..

unless there is a picture we do not quite grasp,
& must be pigment to..


pleae use my flesh

& use my fucking failure

& use my fucking pain

& use my fucking hatefull fucking loss....

but please,


keep me fucking kind

when kindness is what some other, poor, relatively innocent


may need...


plastic wingnut in a microwave
Sep 23, 2009
Current Location
folks who know me have my #.
gird your loins up, son..

it doesn't fucking end, & if you jump off a fucking cliff because you can't deal with it, we''l fucking mourn, but I, personally, will only envy how you dealt with it.

no pity, onnly sorrow for what is, grief at my own cowardice & a slow self destruction by my own hand raised to you, in toast..


Aug 27, 2017
Current Location
South of Branson
Man I can relate for sure. Chemicals definitely don't help. Glad you're backing off that shit. I'd say hunker down until that unhealthy shit is out of your system. If you're up in Oregon still, try getting some of that weed for anxiety/depression. My brother swears by a strain called Golden something...can't remember now that I need to. haha I was thinking Golden Goat, but that's a sativa I think and seems like an indica might be a better choice. Depends on your own personal chemical balance probably though.
There's a free app called Leafly that has a shitload of cannabis knowledge and it's free. Maybe check that out.
Keep your head up and know there's people out there like you. You're not alone in this kind of thing for sure.


Dec 24, 2010
Current Location
Potter County PA
Well went to ER last night just to get a short anti anxiety script to sleep and I slept hard finally. To kind of kick the cycle a bit. I probably got 8 hours. Going to a clinic today to see about options. I was doing good and bottomed our again.

Users Who Are Viewing This Thread (Users: 0, Guests: 1)

About us

  • Squat the Planet is the world's largest social network for misfit travelers. Join our community of do-it-yourself nomads and learn how to explore the world by any means necessary.

    More Info

Support StP!

Donations go towards paying our monthly server fees, adding new features to the website, and occasionally putting a burrito in Matt's mouth.

Total amount

Monthly Goals

  1. Paying the Bills
    $35.00 of $50.00
    The first $50 in donations go towards paying our monthly server fees and adding new features to the website. Once this goal is reached, we'll see about feeding Matt that burrito.
  2. Buy Matt a Beer
    $35.00 of $75.00
    Now that we have the bills paid for this month, let's give Matt a hearty thank you by buying him a drink for all the hard work he's done for StP. Hopefully his will help keep him from going insane after a long day of squishing website bugs.
  3. Feed Matt a Burrito
    $35.00 of $100.00
    Now that the bills are paid and Matt has a beer in his hand, how about showing him your love by rewarding all his hard work with a big fat burrito to put in his mouth. This will keep him alive while programming new features for the website.
  4. Finance the Shopping Cart
    $35.00 of $200.00
    Now that the bills are paid and Matt is fed, perhaps it's time to start planning for those twilight years under the bridge... if only he had that golden shopping cart all the oogles are bragging about these days.

Latest Status Updates

croc wrote on bowldog's profile.
Love ur profile pic. She looks so sultry peeking thru the trees
dumpsternavel wrote on Rhubarb Dwyer's profile.
So clevar
The only good part about the ER is the BE that comes before-hand! :p
forgot how fast people'll throw the first blow in the street
got complacent having only sparred with friends recently.
was socked in the head,
only managed to block the second blow or so
before being knocked to the ground

(to be fair, knocking us off our feet isn't hard when we require a cane or smth to support ourselves most days)
Currently in Louisiana , I'm off the road. Had Hep C an liver cancer. Don't ever forget to be free from the man you have to leave it all behind, each an every time. Jax if any kids about
Stuck on paper in idaho, missing the woods and my DK fam
I've made some layout adjustments to featured content threads. They should look much prettier on mobile devices, although I'm still working on how the main featured page displays on those devices...
Due to a software bug, I've had to disable the ability for users to delete their accounts until a fix is released (hopefully no more than a few days).
You ever look back and kind of wonder even if you wanted to try to fix things... How you even begin to apologise for Fucking up someone's life??

Members online