i am 44 and find myself wearying of the same old shit. i roamed early and got a life late (at least by society's standard). i am ready to be back out there on my agenda, not on anothers. i sat back and thought long and hard about it. i am not really happy anymore, just distracted. always wishing i could be doing something else, going somewhere else. but.....job, bills, relationships, etc. tend to hold back most. i do not worry about shit and never have. most think i am crazy for slipping the yoke and leaving material pursuits, but i find it tremendously refreshing. it has been a long damn time since i have truly sat back and enjoyed life for what it is and not the societal norm of television, friday night bars, and microwave food. i can tell you this, i look forward to leaving this life of unending responsibilities and less than gratifying "off time". i long for the feeling of freedom and new people with a pile of cool shit to see thrown in. i, sir, leave monday with not a backward glance, with a ford ranger and the little bit of stuff i NEED. not all the crap i weighed myself down with. i hope you find the answer you seek, i know i did.
