It's kind of like that song, you know? "Should I stay or should I go?"
The smart thing to do, as well as the courageous thing to do, would be to stand with my community and people I have befriended over the last few months, volunteer at the soup kitchen, and focus on my online classes while at home, so I can at least be useful in learning useful skills like Python, and help prevent the spread of disease, and keep an eye on my family.
At the same time, the last two years of my life here in Tennessee have been the most bullshit lonely two years of my life, and I'll be Goddamned if I die in a place that's made me feel so lonely and trapped in the rat race.
If I stay, I can help keep the spread down globally, and help my community, and stay with my uh, missionary friends, but there's no telling where things will go, and I may end up stuck here for God knows how long, and I know it's a struggle to keep myself healthy and sane while living with my pops, especially with all THIS shit going down.
If I go to Cancun, that would be reckless, and maybe even considered cowardly, but my family would support my decision regardless, I could find ways to be useful in Mexico, and I can see new things, and definitely won't be in Tennessee anymore.
