I thought it was kinda funny that this one guy said he was a bad kid and got in trouble a lot in high school. Partying seems so mainstream in American culture that not getting in trouble is more non-conformist than breaking the law. It's disappointing how stupid Americans are such as an 18 year old boy recently dying at a fraternity party at Cornell University recently. It's often the rich kids at elite schools that are the most ignorant. Although, I've been to jail, a federal misdemeanor, for spray-painting "FUCK WAR 4 OIL" on a federal courthouse in Salt Lake City in 2011 because I was unemployed, really bored, and almost drunk from drinking beer at the bar and did it impulsively because I was frustrated with the violent state of Iraq and happened to have some black spray-paint in my backpack while I was walking down the street. I did a really good, fast job with making block-like letters and probably would have gotten away with it and not gotten caught if it wasn't afternoon lunch time and a federal marshall and attorney were nearby and grabbed me and took me into the courthouse detention. I did 6 weeks in protective custody (also non as solitary confinement aka sensory deprivation) and it messed me up pretty bad, but recently doing LSD has improved my anxiety/PTSD. I am looking into getting SSDI with back-pay because of how traumatic sensory deprivation PTSD is as well as long-term homelessness and unemployment. I lost my driver license from an outstanding ticket that I failed to appear for in about 2008 in Phoenix and then had my car confiscated and was without a driver license in Salt Lake City for about 3 years. Because of how strict my father was and being a perfectionist, the verbal abuse and authoritarian nature of my upbringing made it so that I lacked the confidence necessary to get a job. I have been unemployed more of my life than employed. However, I am proud of my struggles and not being a greedy dick, although I regret all of the idle time and not moving around more to find more positive situations.
I was a really good, nerdy kid and never went to or was invited to any parties in high school and mostly just spent time with a small clique of nerdy guys, having sleepovers with them, playing video games, and watching movies. I went to the skatepark a lot by myself, and to like a few hundred local concerts by myself often.
I have struggled with around 8 years of social isolation because my high school friends abandoned me when I moved away and chose not to reconnect with me or help me when I moved back to Michigan a few times over the years. I became very angry and frustrated about my homelessness when I finally started working again about 3-4 years ago and the verbal abuse from my father and lack of real support/help resulted in me making death threats to my father and the rest of my family (but mostly just my father). Despite having no history of violence, my father was incredibly stupid and petitioned to put me into a psychiatric hospital and I was there for 2 weeks. One of the biggest mistakes of my life was moving back to Saginaw County because the people there are absolutely trash, really bad, stupid, ignorant people, including my own family.
I believe I was misdiagnosed as psychotic and given shots of the anti-psychotic Invega and the pill abilify. Abilify made me really restless and Invega really messed me up emotionally for up to 6 months. I became so lonely from the Invega side-effects and frustrated from being able to find a job from the assholes in my economically declined hometown that I ended up breaking a glass on my parents new kitchen floor and was banned from my parents house (I had my own apartment in Saginaw about 2 years ago). The loneliness was too much for me and I kicked in their door a few times. It resulted in a home-invasion charge and more PTSD from the horrible conditions of the local Saginaw city jail. It's really horrifying that my brother and sister have abandoned me for no reason and my parents do not talk to me anymore, except my father very briefly maybe twice per month. They are horrible, selfish people and I will never forgive them for not helping me, socially neglecting me, and just being selfish, manipulative people that would not just accept me for who I am, who I wanted to be, and deciding to ignore me because they were too emotionally retarded and cried when I moved to the west coast. They could have afforded to have me fly home often but would not do that. This is why I have lost touch with all of my friends and family. It's like home alone because I am not invited to family parties any more.
I was given a delayed sentence and pled guilty because my parents refused to drop the charges and said that they would testify against me. They seem to care more about decorating their house and luxury posessions than having their child have a good life and be successful and happy. They are superficial scum. The delayed sentence said that the 3rd degree felony home-invasion charge would become a misdemeanor after a year of probation was successfully completed. My public defender did not care that my parents were verbally abusive and neglectful. She was lazy and did not do anything to help me. I moved to a house in Detroit and my roommate punched me and attacked me for no reason about 4 times, slowly increasing the physical abuse over time. He freaked out when I went into his room to turn off his radio when it was blasting loud and he had left the house. He came into my bedroom without permission and punched me really hard, twice. I was fed up and called 911 to have him arrested, out of the house and into jail so I could have the place to myself. The property manager was a woman who claimed that her husband was a retired detective for the Detroit police department. When the police came, the roommate called the house owner and the couple showed up. They talked to the police inside the house while I was across the street talking to a different police officer. I went to jail for about 2-3 nights and the holding cells were actually better than Saginaw. It was bigger, more humane/clean, and they gave us little cushy mattresses at night to sleep on - but made us turn them in during the day. The Detroit people were also a lot cooler, nicer and smarter than the Saginaw assholes I had to deal with in the Sasginaw county jail. I went to the Hamtrack Hotel and Hostel to get back on my feet and to find a new place to stay, and about a week or two later I received a call from my probation officer and said that I needed to turn myself in to the Saginaw county jail for "violent behavior." I cannot imagine why a probation officer would blame the vicitim of violence. My debit card had a fraudulent charge on it and so I had to wait a week to get my daily-pay debit card re-activated on my DoorDash driver account. I was homeless and my parents refused to give me enough money to get a motel or hostel room (only $25 a day). Sleeping in my car and not having enough income was too humiliating for me so I took the money I had and used it for gas and moved to Washington DC where the hostels were a lot cheaper.
I was pulled over by a Virginia officer when a neighbor called the police for me sleeping in my car on their gravel side driveway on the edge of their property. This was maybe March of 2019. The police officers called Michigan probation and they said it was "in-state pickup only" so I have not gone back to Michigan again except for a day or two. I am hoping the felony judge is cool enough to not enter a default felony judgment for me. I am considering writing to the judge to see if he will give me any hints about how he will rule for my upcoming court date. I am also going to ask for a different public defender. My public defender, a black woman, refused to call and ask about the status of my case in Detroit (I assume all charges are dropped, it was merely corrupt intimidation) nor defend my probation case in front of the judge for me. She lied and said that she was not allowed to work on my case because the old case had been completed.
The lack of help I get is very wrong and I hate society for this. I believe that I am better than most people because of my desire to help others. I believe in cooperation and unity, as well as following the law. I desire to travel in Canada where it is more diverse, more intelligent, more artsy, better culture, and the laws are more fair and less fascist. I hate America and like to burn American flags for a hobby. I also plan on traveling Mexico, and especially South America. If I can afford it then I will go overseas as well. I prefer Asian, Russian and South America culture to most others. Australians are pretty cool, too. I am a single man but not looking to date.
A few of my favorite bands are anti-flag, Against All authority, and The Suicide Machines but mostly I listen to classical piano and ambience such as Aphex Twin.
I am a democratic communist but I hate American liberals and democrats because they are so politically correct and generally do not believe in freedom of speech. I like to say that I am on the far left political spectrum but not politically correct. Modern labels would call this "libertarian socialist" but this is the original, historical definition of the word "libertarian."
