wasted
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everywhere i go i seem to be discontent, which drives me to travel, to run away, searching for something i'll never find. i had my own apartment and a job, the goal of starting a band in a bumfuck town to make it better. once that fell apart there was no focus, no purpose. moved back to my dad's and the isolation of the woods drove me back to insanity, so i came back to this bumfuck town of williamsport which is the largest city for miles, although it's population is only 32,000. it's easy to lose perspective here.
i've been bumming around the town, staying on peoples floors, sleeping outside and gettin' rained on, trying to get my feet planted and try to start a band again. i've got this biting wanderlust, this feeling that if i leave this area i could find what i'm looking for, that by staying here i am wasting my time, wasting my youth. but i also have the hope that staying in this town i will find what i'm looking for internally, and not have to travel looking externally. problem is it's a pretty culturally dead town, i've gotta be the one to start this culture. there are maybe 3 or 4 punks, not including me. no venues, nothing fun to do, i always seem depressed and bored and everyone else does too. i've got a job interview at wendy's tonight and it worries me. do i want to plant my feet here?
there's always the road, but i always get caught up in situations that aren't that great, such as being in a strange city at night with nobody around and nothing to do, nowhere to go, no comfort. indecision plagues me.
any advice?
i've been bumming around the town, staying on peoples floors, sleeping outside and gettin' rained on, trying to get my feet planted and try to start a band again. i've got this biting wanderlust, this feeling that if i leave this area i could find what i'm looking for, that by staying here i am wasting my time, wasting my youth. but i also have the hope that staying in this town i will find what i'm looking for internally, and not have to travel looking externally. problem is it's a pretty culturally dead town, i've gotta be the one to start this culture. there are maybe 3 or 4 punks, not including me. no venues, nothing fun to do, i always seem depressed and bored and everyone else does too. i've got a job interview at wendy's tonight and it worries me. do i want to plant my feet here?
there's always the road, but i always get caught up in situations that aren't that great, such as being in a strange city at night with nobody around and nothing to do, nowhere to go, no comfort. indecision plagues me.
any advice?