hi everyone! i'm very excited to start using this forum. i cant say i've ever really used one to post my thoughts or anything. i've always just been a lurker, gathering information and such.
anyways, i've reached somewhat of a realization in how i want to live my life (not like a grand scheme, just an idea of how i want to live day to day). I have always been apathetic towards the capitalistic "mold". I didn't exceed at school, barely floating by. I never planned for college and after highschool i just kind of sat around feeling unmotivated to do anything that i knew i had to do. i didn't want to get a job (i did have one for about 7 months though) and i didn't want to start college. but as i said, i've come to a realization, that is i dont have to pursue this life! the capitalist structure is one that i am not fit for. and i've seen it turn my friends and family into monotonous data points. it seems all anyone cares about is paying this, paying that, and buying some shit and being very comfortable. capitalism provides that all right. but that crushes me. turns my brain to mush. i can't waste any more of my life trying to convince myself to do these things that i dont want to do. it's not my purpose! i seek a life that is more enlightening. a life that just lets me be me and survive on my own intuition. i'm tired of following blueprints.
i want to travel. that i'm sure of. at least while i'm still young (i'm only 19!)
i want to meet people like myself. open-minded, free spirited, non-judgemental. i've always been a misfit, even within my family and closest friend groups. that's ok though! i'm no longer seeing that as a bad thing. i'm proud of myself and i now realized where my passions are. i feel as though i have a stronger conscience than ever. i'm ready to move my life in the right direction, my direction.
i'm sorry i'm completely rambling! i just want you guys to know where i'm at in life. i'm basically just trying to decide where i'm going to go from here. i'm just a 19 year old living at home with no money and no plans. i suppose it's kind of a blank slate! i feel ready for a life of adventure, anarchist values, friendship, and debatable legality. i'm content to just slip through the cracks if you know what i mean. i'm a minimalist. i don't need a lot to get by. i just need a reason to get by.
ok! i hope this wasn't too long winded!
thanks for reading. please say hi! i love people, and i don't get to talk to too many in my real life that are like-minded, so i'm always down for a good conversation.
much love!
-Von
anyways, i've reached somewhat of a realization in how i want to live my life (not like a grand scheme, just an idea of how i want to live day to day). I have always been apathetic towards the capitalistic "mold". I didn't exceed at school, barely floating by. I never planned for college and after highschool i just kind of sat around feeling unmotivated to do anything that i knew i had to do. i didn't want to get a job (i did have one for about 7 months though) and i didn't want to start college. but as i said, i've come to a realization, that is i dont have to pursue this life! the capitalist structure is one that i am not fit for. and i've seen it turn my friends and family into monotonous data points. it seems all anyone cares about is paying this, paying that, and buying some shit and being very comfortable. capitalism provides that all right. but that crushes me. turns my brain to mush. i can't waste any more of my life trying to convince myself to do these things that i dont want to do. it's not my purpose! i seek a life that is more enlightening. a life that just lets me be me and survive on my own intuition. i'm tired of following blueprints.
i want to travel. that i'm sure of. at least while i'm still young (i'm only 19!)
i want to meet people like myself. open-minded, free spirited, non-judgemental. i've always been a misfit, even within my family and closest friend groups. that's ok though! i'm no longer seeing that as a bad thing. i'm proud of myself and i now realized where my passions are. i feel as though i have a stronger conscience than ever. i'm ready to move my life in the right direction, my direction.
i'm sorry i'm completely rambling! i just want you guys to know where i'm at in life. i'm basically just trying to decide where i'm going to go from here. i'm just a 19 year old living at home with no money and no plans. i suppose it's kind of a blank slate! i feel ready for a life of adventure, anarchist values, friendship, and debatable legality. i'm content to just slip through the cracks if you know what i mean. i'm a minimalist. i don't need a lot to get by. i just need a reason to get by.
ok! i hope this wasn't too long winded!
thanks for reading. please say hi! i love people, and i don't get to talk to too many in my real life that are like-minded, so i'm always down for a good conversation.
much love!
-Von
