OrphXan
Member
I'm housed up now in New Brunswick (Canada)... I'm trying to get clean. Changing my environment/surroundings is a lot harder than I imagined. At least, sticking with it.
I've been wearing..uh.. clean? Clothes mostly these days and I took some of my piercings out. My lifestyle has dramatically changedand part of me is torn about it. I feel like I'm living a double life in my heart and it's a very delicately balanced shred of stability that I've got in my life with very few positive supports that I can relate to. Everytime I get lost in my mind about just taking off or putting in the work to build something sustainable here, I can hear a train off in the distance passing through town and since this is a crew change, catching out is very realistic. So now it's just commiting to putting down some roots here and finding a way to sustain a future that still allows and improves my future that includes travelling.. and travelling enough to keep me satisfied and not derailing my progress and spiralling out of control with any habbits that aren't healthy
I've been wearing..uh.. clean? Clothes mostly these days and I took some of my piercings out. My lifestyle has dramatically changedand part of me is torn about it. I feel like I'm living a double life in my heart and it's a very delicately balanced shred of stability that I've got in my life with very few positive supports that I can relate to. Everytime I get lost in my mind about just taking off or putting in the work to build something sustainable here, I can hear a train off in the distance passing through town and since this is a crew change, catching out is very realistic. So now it's just commiting to putting down some roots here and finding a way to sustain a future that still allows and improves my future that includes travelling.. and travelling enough to keep me satisfied and not derailing my progress and spiralling out of control with any habbits that aren't healthy