Stinkyyy
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Straight up copy pasted from my journal but can anyone explain this weird shit???
Ok so lets talk about this cold turkey ting.
After using an average of £100 a day (£200 at my worst in brighton) in snowballs im now almost 3 days into a straighr up rattle. The original plan was for Kayo to mail me out some suboxone which he did fucking bless old friends, but they never made it here cuz of the easter weekend meaning i just had to jump into it... And let me fuckin say this shit - if i can do this with my foot all mangled and not a single OTC medication so can you if youre in the same shit as me.
Day one, fuckin nerve wracking but im tellin ya if you take yaself outta that junkie situation, in a totally clean n clear environment listen to some sweet music seriously yeah its tempting to smash out the depressing shit but listen to some dumb happy stuff and DISTRACT URSELF! Thats what im doin now, distractin myself. The first day is killah because ur just waitin n waitin for that rattle to start like am i even in it yet? I shot up so much i didnt even know how long it really took but all it was was freakin COLD COLD COLD. Take some paracetamol or some shit to regulate ur body temp. So yeah i shivered through day one.
Day two, i didnt sleep much at all the night before. I didnt feel like i slept at all until id fully woken up and realised id been having super fuckin tripped out dreams, about using, about my mum shoutin through the door, about then handbag full of fucking needles i still need to clean out. Shitty night but its OVER!!! day two wasnt too bad until the evening when the stomach cramps kicked in, but its cool, i just curled in a ball thinkin 'it will end it will end' and IT FUCKING DOES, OBVIOUSLY. Then i puked up like twice, three timez idk but i figured to let myself purge cuz it just relieved ll the pain and tension from my stomach, then.... Another sleepless night, up at 6am or something...
Day three, today, mate i feel GOOD! is this normal??????? Like wtf trust me i know how it is to be dopesick but how am i three days in and feeling ok???? Feelin sleep deprived n shit but it could be worse right?? The thing thats killing me is not being physically able to leave the house now cuz of my foot like if i could walk id be outta here.
This is too easy, wtf guys is it really possible for some people to just jump in and out of a habit like this??? Like ok the second i sit still in silence or put my tablet down i feel achy n shit but... Whatever???
Peace out!
Ok so lets talk about this cold turkey ting.
After using an average of £100 a day (£200 at my worst in brighton) in snowballs im now almost 3 days into a straighr up rattle. The original plan was for Kayo to mail me out some suboxone which he did fucking bless old friends, but they never made it here cuz of the easter weekend meaning i just had to jump into it... And let me fuckin say this shit - if i can do this with my foot all mangled and not a single OTC medication so can you if youre in the same shit as me.
Day one, fuckin nerve wracking but im tellin ya if you take yaself outta that junkie situation, in a totally clean n clear environment listen to some sweet music seriously yeah its tempting to smash out the depressing shit but listen to some dumb happy stuff and DISTRACT URSELF! Thats what im doin now, distractin myself. The first day is killah because ur just waitin n waitin for that rattle to start like am i even in it yet? I shot up so much i didnt even know how long it really took but all it was was freakin COLD COLD COLD. Take some paracetamol or some shit to regulate ur body temp. So yeah i shivered through day one.
Day two, i didnt sleep much at all the night before. I didnt feel like i slept at all until id fully woken up and realised id been having super fuckin tripped out dreams, about using, about my mum shoutin through the door, about then handbag full of fucking needles i still need to clean out. Shitty night but its OVER!!! day two wasnt too bad until the evening when the stomach cramps kicked in, but its cool, i just curled in a ball thinkin 'it will end it will end' and IT FUCKING DOES, OBVIOUSLY. Then i puked up like twice, three timez idk but i figured to let myself purge cuz it just relieved ll the pain and tension from my stomach, then.... Another sleepless night, up at 6am or something...
Day three, today, mate i feel GOOD! is this normal??????? Like wtf trust me i know how it is to be dopesick but how am i three days in and feeling ok???? Feelin sleep deprived n shit but it could be worse right?? The thing thats killing me is not being physically able to leave the house now cuz of my foot like if i could walk id be outta here.
This is too easy, wtf guys is it really possible for some people to just jump in and out of a habit like this??? Like ok the second i sit still in silence or put my tablet down i feel achy n shit but... Whatever???
Peace out!
