what the fuck do i do?

[RnJ]

As first-world as this problem is....education can be emotionally and psychologically trying. That's not a bad thing. Growth doesn't come in comfort zones and without stretching. It also doesn't come when all of this is being imposed on you. I suggest you don't work quite so hard, and take time to go watch trains go by, or go play some guitar downtown, or whatever. Personally, I am more stressed our by self-directed stuff / do-at-your-own-pace stuff, then in-class, because I am a terrible procrastinator and waste my time, so I don't know if online learning is really that great. I would never do it that way.

Hanging out with positive people is something I recommend to anyone for any emotional and psychological issues. It can do not bad, provided the person is not ignorant and cold toward your problems.

 

[outskirts]

If it's just a few more months you got then just finish! Get you diploma and then split if you want.
This big wide world ain't going nowhere, it will be here waiting for you to wander and explore.
Look at it this way, in your free time while not working on your school work you could be researching shit, survival skills,
a second language, map reading & land navigation, etc. Don't neglect your regular school studies though, these "other"
studies in your spare time will not feel like work, they will feel like that little escape that you need every now and then.
I saw someone recomend Wizehop's videos, there's somewhere to start.
Gear can often be made or procured quickly, but skills can not... stay in school.