Taking the plunge

[QuilCordovan]

The ONLY reason I haven't said fuck it and started living the way I want to is cause my mother. 1. I actually love her alot. 2. She has cancer. I'm not a complete selfish prick3. We've been through alot of shit together. I dropped out of normalcy a time ago, haven't truly cared about society in years, while everyone was dreaming bout their academic futures I was pipedreaming bout being a nomad, like the bounty hunter fucker from Raising Arizona. I literally wanna find solace, I want to do something with my life, and I don't mean make money or be successful, I wanna create, network with people, shit like that, Idk, I hate the nihilistic mentality that "punks" have sometimes, and while it has helped me on my path in life at times, there has to be more. At the end of the day everyone's a cunt no matter what ideologies they adopt lmao
My main obstacle is where to start
In a few months I'm gonna say fuck it

 

[wizehop]

Enjoy the time you have with your Mother, it trumps a lot of things. A buddy of mine is losing him mom any day now to cancer and trust me he's already missing her. The prognosis went from a couple of years to any day so things can change, and fast.
Society may be fucked, but the people that matter to us are worth the world. I'm not sure how sick your mother is, but if she's really ill, def wait for both your sakes.

 

[QuilCordovan]

Within the last year the dosage of her kemo pills went up so I mean I worry about the time we have, and there's also the worry of needing to move into being independent, but obviously not in a sense of abandonment, just in a sense of if anything happens, what do I fall back on, know what I mean? I hope we have years together, but obviously, anything can happen at the drop of a dime.