sideshowbxb
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hello, my name, obviously, i call myself SiDEShOW, now i came up with this name, the name was used one time for me when i was in jail, i decided i liked it, and stuck with it, reason being, i think it represents me and also reminds me of what i believe i am pursuing, lol, sideshow, loner, playing music those nowadays aint really keen to, but in all actuallity, every bit of music anyone creates has already been made a million times over, in the end it depends upon the message, so my intentions, what i want to do, is play music, but also there is a conflict present in me over this - - -
THIS IS AN EXPERIMENT! The reason i am typing this, i have to admit is rather selfish, its to make stronger my intentions both musically, and on the other end i guess, with the way i want to live, the two present conflicts in me, because i can pursue music, ill get by, but in the end, what really am i doing?! a man who rants and raves about his own personal probs and shit, is not the kind of dude i am, or want to be, music is a realease though, emotions run strong, but a man ruled by his emotions, really is not too strong, the reason i say this- - - since that cave man long ago, to today, we are all ruled by those primal animal instincts, eat, shit, fuck, all those things, basically, we are animals, it doesnt matter how much we do to avoid it, thats how we were made . . .
now, the next part is not going to go good for me prolly, because i imagine their will be alot of you whom disagree with me, and by all means, i ENCOURAGE YOU to do so, because, since the dawn of time, thats how mankind has taken the world weve known, and made it to the present, ideas were handed down, knowledge increased, all that shit, i must accept the world in yall understandings too, or at least in a certain degree, because we all live the lives we live, and we must learn, and in fact, how can a man get by without help from his fellow man,
now, here it is, the thing i might catch allot of shit on, i am christian, but i do not believe like those christians whom you see in church, and especially the ones you see whom are preversely leading the mad flock to slaughter, see when i was a kid, i use to have a number of friends whom were wiccan, and i kinda got into it myself, i still carry over some belief i had then, EVRYTHING THAT HAS A LIFE DRIVE PRESENT HAS SOME SORT OF SPIRIT, now i believe all that life is interconnected like some christians do, i do believe theirs evil, and their is good, but also in the end, these are things our minds concoct to deal with the world in which we live in,
i by no means condone evil, but i realize it will always be around, if this world was perfect, i mean really, HOW WOULD WE EVEN KNOW WHAT GOOD REALLY IS? the life experiences that we have, thats what i think, that 99% of bullshit we must go through in life, helps use to appreciate that 1% of good that occassionally comes along, i read alot, bad habits die hard, im still that nerdy kid who didnt have a friend in school that was trapped in books, we are all gifted in some respects, thats why i believe that all life is interconnected, or well, should be, if it worked together right,
in otherwords, i think theres something everyone could teach sumone else such as myself, and also, there isnt one all knowing being on this planet, we are all as human as the next mutherfudger, so by all means, where there is criticism, please present your comments i ask not in hate or violently, just tell me, i am a peaceful dude, make love not war,
anyhow- MISSION STATEMENT - well those are strong words, i shall make sure to follow up on my mission statement weekly, the reason why being stated be4, play guitar better everyday, and try to learn to live out in the world like mother nature for us to,
this has two parts- 1st - GUITAR!!!
she is the love of my life, such a beautiful curse, i cannot rid myself of the venom from this fiendish behavior, I LOVE MUSIC, everyday i play, i cannot step away from playing long enuff to save my life, its what i WANT TO DO, but as i said be4, what really is a man that just sits there and bitches about things? my music i want to have a positive message, for example -
back in the days of old, back before the first bible was written, and im not talking about the english doctrine, im talking jewish, im talking old testament, they use to have once a week supposedly, kinda like church, sum1 whom remembered these ideas pass down from there forefathers, and would spend one day reciting all this stuff, the old testament, if you look beyond just the first four books, well, even alot of that had great ideas too, all kinds of stuff were talked about, from how to properly wash up, to how one should rotate his crops, so as to reinvigorate the soil, to how if a house has black mold growing on it all should be burned up, all that parts with the mold, house construction, i mean theres alot of basics in there, just as there is in alot of ancient texts, - i want to preserve these good ideas, not only from christianity, judaism, muslim, - we could take that all the way down the line - Osho, Buddha, Gandhi, - every moral, every good idea, every positive thing we can think about, and make them into songs, i mean still im gonna play the feeling songs, but i think it would be good to preserve these good ideas in song not just sing the emotional ones, that way maybe sum of these ideas will get flowing again in our society, we will remember about all the shit mankind really is, aside from the technology we have amassed that i think has been ripping out our roots, we need to get back ing the ground,
2nd part- LIVE WITH NATURE - theres a site i have been studying, eattheweeds.com, i have slowly been taking in this material, been going through, trying to figure out were to start, what i should use, its going to take some work, but if im to preserve these ideas, i need to live it, but there lies another problem with this, i am nothing but a man of this society thats been made, i am use to eating meat, processed foods, produce that has been chemicallly enhanced, so its going to take my stomach a slow transition into the lifestyle i would like to live, because if i take it to fast, i might end up making myself very sick, and then what good could i do for anybody then,
being a loner as much as i have been all my life, theres one thing ive realized, think about it - WHAT IF YOU WERE THE ONLY HUMAN BEING ON EARTH? - do you think you would love the world you were living in, no one to talk to, not one person to enjoy the pleasures or obsenities, lol, of this world with? or would be crazy, try to drown yourself in a lake, go find a fire pit and jump into it, because you dont see a reason to live any further?
Suicide is no answer, every person in this world needs others to interact with, thats why i have decided to pursue what might be a very rewarding life, getting back to the basics, living on a farm, living with nature, of course though i am still a traveler, and theres no if ands or buts about that, i am still a piece of shit, it doesnt matter what little bit of good i do, or i think im doing, because me by myself, ME = SHIT, lol, thats the only thing i am producing, so i want to find me an organic farm sumtime next year, where i can work and learn to live off the land better than how i know, and then when im done there, go to another one the next year, go play guitar with other inspirational musicians, crap
look at all this crap i just wrote down, its nothing but malarkey, i hope to get some work out in colorado next year around april (420) because, well, i am nothing but a pothead in the end, although i dont smoke every single day like i use to when i was in my early teens, i still find smoking weed occassionally to be very uplifting for me, but too much i find destroys my musical capabilities, i shall be using wwoof.org to find work, i got to get in contact with a farm, be4 the start of the next season to insure that i will have a farm waiting on me to show up, and also just to verify to myself that they aint a hoax, paranoia is a muther, fudgepacker, evil fudgepackers . . .
any positive feedback would be much appreciated, and also anything negative i also welcome, but please, i only ask that you would present your thoughts in a courteous manner, and to everyone else who reads this and is just passing through in life, on the internet, the next city, next state,
happy trails, my friends
THIS IS AN EXPERIMENT! The reason i am typing this, i have to admit is rather selfish, its to make stronger my intentions both musically, and on the other end i guess, with the way i want to live, the two present conflicts in me, because i can pursue music, ill get by, but in the end, what really am i doing?! a man who rants and raves about his own personal probs and shit, is not the kind of dude i am, or want to be, music is a realease though, emotions run strong, but a man ruled by his emotions, really is not too strong, the reason i say this- - - since that cave man long ago, to today, we are all ruled by those primal animal instincts, eat, shit, fuck, all those things, basically, we are animals, it doesnt matter how much we do to avoid it, thats how we were made . . .
now, the next part is not going to go good for me prolly, because i imagine their will be alot of you whom disagree with me, and by all means, i ENCOURAGE YOU to do so, because, since the dawn of time, thats how mankind has taken the world weve known, and made it to the present, ideas were handed down, knowledge increased, all that shit, i must accept the world in yall understandings too, or at least in a certain degree, because we all live the lives we live, and we must learn, and in fact, how can a man get by without help from his fellow man,
now, here it is, the thing i might catch allot of shit on, i am christian, but i do not believe like those christians whom you see in church, and especially the ones you see whom are preversely leading the mad flock to slaughter, see when i was a kid, i use to have a number of friends whom were wiccan, and i kinda got into it myself, i still carry over some belief i had then, EVRYTHING THAT HAS A LIFE DRIVE PRESENT HAS SOME SORT OF SPIRIT, now i believe all that life is interconnected like some christians do, i do believe theirs evil, and their is good, but also in the end, these are things our minds concoct to deal with the world in which we live in,
i by no means condone evil, but i realize it will always be around, if this world was perfect, i mean really, HOW WOULD WE EVEN KNOW WHAT GOOD REALLY IS? the life experiences that we have, thats what i think, that 99% of bullshit we must go through in life, helps use to appreciate that 1% of good that occassionally comes along, i read alot, bad habits die hard, im still that nerdy kid who didnt have a friend in school that was trapped in books, we are all gifted in some respects, thats why i believe that all life is interconnected, or well, should be, if it worked together right,
in otherwords, i think theres something everyone could teach sumone else such as myself, and also, there isnt one all knowing being on this planet, we are all as human as the next mutherfudger, so by all means, where there is criticism, please present your comments i ask not in hate or violently, just tell me, i am a peaceful dude, make love not war,
anyhow- MISSION STATEMENT - well those are strong words, i shall make sure to follow up on my mission statement weekly, the reason why being stated be4, play guitar better everyday, and try to learn to live out in the world like mother nature for us to,
this has two parts- 1st - GUITAR!!!
she is the love of my life, such a beautiful curse, i cannot rid myself of the venom from this fiendish behavior, I LOVE MUSIC, everyday i play, i cannot step away from playing long enuff to save my life, its what i WANT TO DO, but as i said be4, what really is a man that just sits there and bitches about things? my music i want to have a positive message, for example -
back in the days of old, back before the first bible was written, and im not talking about the english doctrine, im talking jewish, im talking old testament, they use to have once a week supposedly, kinda like church, sum1 whom remembered these ideas pass down from there forefathers, and would spend one day reciting all this stuff, the old testament, if you look beyond just the first four books, well, even alot of that had great ideas too, all kinds of stuff were talked about, from how to properly wash up, to how one should rotate his crops, so as to reinvigorate the soil, to how if a house has black mold growing on it all should be burned up, all that parts with the mold, house construction, i mean theres alot of basics in there, just as there is in alot of ancient texts, - i want to preserve these good ideas, not only from christianity, judaism, muslim, - we could take that all the way down the line - Osho, Buddha, Gandhi, - every moral, every good idea, every positive thing we can think about, and make them into songs, i mean still im gonna play the feeling songs, but i think it would be good to preserve these good ideas in song not just sing the emotional ones, that way maybe sum of these ideas will get flowing again in our society, we will remember about all the shit mankind really is, aside from the technology we have amassed that i think has been ripping out our roots, we need to get back ing the ground,
2nd part- LIVE WITH NATURE - theres a site i have been studying, eattheweeds.com, i have slowly been taking in this material, been going through, trying to figure out were to start, what i should use, its going to take some work, but if im to preserve these ideas, i need to live it, but there lies another problem with this, i am nothing but a man of this society thats been made, i am use to eating meat, processed foods, produce that has been chemicallly enhanced, so its going to take my stomach a slow transition into the lifestyle i would like to live, because if i take it to fast, i might end up making myself very sick, and then what good could i do for anybody then,
being a loner as much as i have been all my life, theres one thing ive realized, think about it - WHAT IF YOU WERE THE ONLY HUMAN BEING ON EARTH? - do you think you would love the world you were living in, no one to talk to, not one person to enjoy the pleasures or obsenities, lol, of this world with? or would be crazy, try to drown yourself in a lake, go find a fire pit and jump into it, because you dont see a reason to live any further?
Suicide is no answer, every person in this world needs others to interact with, thats why i have decided to pursue what might be a very rewarding life, getting back to the basics, living on a farm, living with nature, of course though i am still a traveler, and theres no if ands or buts about that, i am still a piece of shit, it doesnt matter what little bit of good i do, or i think im doing, because me by myself, ME = SHIT, lol, thats the only thing i am producing, so i want to find me an organic farm sumtime next year, where i can work and learn to live off the land better than how i know, and then when im done there, go to another one the next year, go play guitar with other inspirational musicians, crap
look at all this crap i just wrote down, its nothing but malarkey, i hope to get some work out in colorado next year around april (420) because, well, i am nothing but a pothead in the end, although i dont smoke every single day like i use to when i was in my early teens, i still find smoking weed occassionally to be very uplifting for me, but too much i find destroys my musical capabilities, i shall be using wwoof.org to find work, i got to get in contact with a farm, be4 the start of the next season to insure that i will have a farm waiting on me to show up, and also just to verify to myself that they aint a hoax, paranoia is a muther, fudgepacker, evil fudgepackers . . .
any positive feedback would be much appreciated, and also anything negative i also welcome, but please, i only ask that you would present your thoughts in a courteous manner, and to everyone else who reads this and is just passing through in life, on the internet, the next city, next state,
happy trails, my friends
