Lost Adolescent

bigwillyt

bigwillyt

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Hello everyone, I am brand new to this site. I joined because it looks to be filled with like minded people. I seem to be faced with a moral dilemma. Growing up in the suburbs of Atlanta, life seems to be very fixed. By nature I love an adventure and I feel like the "normal" life is not for me. This is hard to express when everyone around me says I'm going in the "wrong" direction. What is the "right" direction? I hope you guys might have good insight and supportive ideas while I begin to start a new life.
 
Labels suck.

Normal is overrated and many times not something I try to achieve.

Right and wrong are for you to define.

The moral dilemma might be: Can I be happy with how I live my life when others disapprove or live differently?
 
If you think you want to travel fucking do it, do it carefully, and do it in a way that is comfortable for YOU. But just FUCKING DO IT. You can still keep in touch with your family or friends and if they hate you for this they probably aren't worth being around. But really, just do what you think is right. And don't forget to take care of yourself! You can't do anything you want if you're dead!
 
bigwillyt said:
It almost feels wrong to just leave but I'm tired of loosing sleep because I can't stop thinking about trains.
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I hear you on that, i got people counting on me so itz a twisted situation where i cant make up my mind. I know if i hit the road itl be endless possibility from there.
 
Honestly, I think I'm just scared to leave my parents. Hell, I'm only at my house to eat and sleep and I but heads with my folks like you couldn't imagine, but the thought of leaving them like this hurts a little (alot actually). My legal issues don't help with that either. With that said, I still think God wants me to see the world on foot and not like the average American. Yo, I appreciate it all the positive feedback. I'm seriously leaving but I will need moral support, I'm not always the one to step out of my comfort zone.
 
theres a few threads about the same situation. get yer head on straight before you just flat out leave. trust me, its worth dealing with family shit now rather then later. i know shit is hard, but the only way to get past it is to go right straight through it theres no easy way out. eating and sleeping is a pretty big part of taking care of yer self, be aware that leaving yer current situation because you dream about trains may be a lot harder then you think. life on the road is not a utah phillips song all the time.
 
I agree! It's definitely not something to take lightly. I've spent lots of time thinking about it. There are so many reasons why I should not leave, yet so many reasons why I should. I do have a plan: place to stay, food to eat, job for work. The only thing holding me back is myself at this point, and the paycheck that comes in a week
 
bigwillyt said:
Honestly, I think I'm just scared to leave my parents. Hell, I'm only at my house to eat and sleep and I but heads with my folks like you couldn't imagine, but the thought of leaving them like this hurts a little (alot actually). My legal issues don't help with that either. With that said, I still think God wants me to see the world on foot and not like the average American. Yo, I appreciate it all the positive feedback. I'm seriously leaving but I will need moral support, I'm not always the one to step out of my comfort zone.
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Yeah man i hear you on this 100% ive been away from my parents a good amount of my teenage years. The thing is i never really had a solid relationship with them due to all my crazy drug addictions, so i screwed them and me up pretty bad. Its not that im afraid of leaving but i finally am spritually ready to mend those broken bridges. I have a decision to leave and live free or be there for family that needs me. Funny that you brought up god in your post. I recently met christ for the first time in my life and i feel like hes telling me not to go. He saved my ass and gave me a real shot o make things right. I know i never could of done that on my own. Call me weak but the guilt is what kills me and stops me from buying this alice pack and dipping. Didnt mean to post a sob story, just kinda givin a feel of a similar situation i assume your in.
 
Just try it out. You don't have to burn bridges. Why not taking some time off your job, going on a backpacking trip for a month or alike?

Then you could really experience some of the pros and cons of that lifestyle. I wouldn't suggest trains for the time being, but you could hitchhike. Sleep outside or in cheap hostels. Find out, if that lifestyle might really be what you want.

Then decide if you want to leave "normal life" for an indefinite period of time. Or forever.
 
I feel like I'm ready to go, and that feeling seems to overcome everything else.

My parents actually encouraged funding a trip on the AT but considering that I'll be on probation for at least another year and I'm already facing jail time

I feel like I'm faced with leaving or going to jail and honestly, if I leave I still face possibly going to jail. I might as well enjoy myself in the time being
 
Listen to your heart and to what god/the universe/whatever is telling you. My experience is that nothing good can happen when you're on the wrong path in your life. Be brave and go for it!
 
cantcureherpes said:
theres a few threads about the same situation. get yer head on straight before you just flat out leave. trust me, its worth dealing with family shit now rather then later. i know shit is hard, but the only way to get past it is to go right straight through it theres no easy way out. eating and sleeping is a pretty big part of taking care of yer self, be aware that leaving yer current situation because you dream about trains may be a lot harder then you think. life on the road is not a utah phillips song all the time.
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This is great advice.
 
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