Hey - I go by many names. Cain, Mila, Candie, et al. Accompanying me on my journeys for the past few years is my boyfriend.
My birthday just passed, making me 28 (SURVIVED 27!) and marking 10 years of adventure (and pain).
My plans for the near future include: Detroit, NYC, and the Netherlands ... NONE of which I have a couch in yet! .. and maybe stay in New Orleans a little longer if I find another couch.
I am from Detroit and I am in New Orleans rn but need to be off the couch I am on by the 15th or so of this month.
When I leave New Orleans I have quite a bit of stuff that needs to come with me; I am thinking I will drop it off in Detroit with a relative if but I have no vehicle rn, cannot afford one or a $1500 UHAUL (insane!) and cannot stay with relatives.
I am a multimedia artist and a niche sxxx werker. I love evil music and want to make some soon - I can sing and I write songs all the time but never do anything with them. Wanna learn guitar and figure out how to use synths but it's like I never have the money or time - always being shuffled from one place to the next before I can sink my teeth in.
Topics I deal with in my art and music are frequently suffering, demons, drugs, death, rage, loneliness..lol you get the idea.
A few years back I did a lot of performance art where I would like..bleed and pretend to die or vice versa, probably going to combine that with other art I do - or yours, if you are in need of collaborators. I also design logos and promotional material for bands occasionally.
I love the occult, reading ancient texts, and am very spiritual, but science and social science are my main interests. I am also very into computers but not very into social media - unfortunately for my wallet. Maybe I'd do it again someday, but I keep getting a following and then being banned :/ too irreverent, and the art itself is too much too, I guess.
My opinions are not always popular and I am so chill about that - I am great at being friends with those who don't share them...so long as they can be friends with me...but it's about time I find a few who DO. I am anti self- and media- censorship and pro objective truth... but that isn't to say I stand against kindness, civility and understanding of those different from us. My interactions with the world are proof that we are NOT all the same, and do NOT all want the same things...but that is fine. We are all worthy of the same respect. I think truly direct communication is important. Deep communication is valuable. Operating entirely on emotion and masking it as "morality" or "common sense" is overrated. Philosophizing and introspection are for everyone, I think, and if people knew what the hell they even thought and wanted, beyond what whatever dogma they pick dictates, I think the world would be a better place...a more truthful one, at least.
I am the enemy of only those who rely very heavily on knee jerk emotional reactions and assumptions that they won't let the target correct--and, frequently, the enemy of categorization; I'm ssoooo done being told by people who can't who I am, how I feel, what I'm REALLY saying, why I am secretly lying when I DO agee with them or change my mind, but stupid if I don't, and why the strawman they just invented (because that's ..not me bro) is wrong and is a bad person for all of it..... ( Ik I sound like a redditor all LOgic aNd ReAsON, AnAlYsIs but....like. yeah. Logic, reason, and analysis.....ascribing those concepts to idiots and making a negative outta the most productive and civil way to interact with other humans is, and has always been, propaganda; if we aren't safe to counter attacks on our character, we are not safe in our connections...we are not safe, period. Therapy speak and accountability language are being abused to...abuse the abused. Scapegoated too many times to count for reasons that genuinely never fit the situation I was in, would never apply to anyone else, and never made sense, lol..) if you like thinking and thunking and having a brain, I will like you, regardless of whether we agree on everything.
I am always been dogshit at putting myself out there (even though I've been OUT THERE in the literal sense and in the weird sense)... For a while I worked w people on their branding for social media and I did a very good job but constantly working for others for very little in exchange meant shelving myself .. blind spot in promoting myself and never seem to be able to get out of survival mode long enough to make connections. A lot of my friends are also dead, and a lot of the others demand total sobriety..often AFTER I arrive. I am beyond pro harm reduction at this point; I'm for Help Expansion..perhaps Fun Engorgement.
I am done going it alone - it's hard out here. I want to be understood as I am, on my terms.
Long time lurker - I did post in the discord a few times though, probably going to get back in there too. I think I had another account here a while back too, I've been Like This for a long time, on and off homeless for a decade now and usually living in my van or couch surfing somewhere or another.
I have lived all over the continental US, but I have had a hard time finding community and friends who get me.
Recently, I lost my van. Which sucks, because I have about one vanful of stuff. I have been spiraling ever since.
I have a plan to get a place eventually where there would be ample couches for crashin.
I will definitely make another post about that that's less full of ME but this is supposed to be my intro I'm posting the whole damn thing
If u wanna hang out. Got a place. Start a cult. idk let. s goooo
both photos are me lol duality of (wo)man
My birthday just passed, making me 28 (SURVIVED 27!) and marking 10 years of adventure (and pain).
My plans for the near future include: Detroit, NYC, and the Netherlands ... NONE of which I have a couch in yet! .. and maybe stay in New Orleans a little longer if I find another couch.
I am from Detroit and I am in New Orleans rn but need to be off the couch I am on by the 15th or so of this month.
When I leave New Orleans I have quite a bit of stuff that needs to come with me; I am thinking I will drop it off in Detroit with a relative if but I have no vehicle rn, cannot afford one or a $1500 UHAUL (insane!) and cannot stay with relatives.
I am a multimedia artist and a niche sxxx werker. I love evil music and want to make some soon - I can sing and I write songs all the time but never do anything with them. Wanna learn guitar and figure out how to use synths but it's like I never have the money or time - always being shuffled from one place to the next before I can sink my teeth in.
Topics I deal with in my art and music are frequently suffering, demons, drugs, death, rage, loneliness..lol you get the idea.
A few years back I did a lot of performance art where I would like..bleed and pretend to die or vice versa, probably going to combine that with other art I do - or yours, if you are in need of collaborators. I also design logos and promotional material for bands occasionally.
I love the occult, reading ancient texts, and am very spiritual, but science and social science are my main interests. I am also very into computers but not very into social media - unfortunately for my wallet. Maybe I'd do it again someday, but I keep getting a following and then being banned :/ too irreverent, and the art itself is too much too, I guess.
My opinions are not always popular and I am so chill about that - I am great at being friends with those who don't share them...so long as they can be friends with me...but it's about time I find a few who DO. I am anti self- and media- censorship and pro objective truth... but that isn't to say I stand against kindness, civility and understanding of those different from us. My interactions with the world are proof that we are NOT all the same, and do NOT all want the same things...but that is fine. We are all worthy of the same respect. I think truly direct communication is important. Deep communication is valuable. Operating entirely on emotion and masking it as "morality" or "common sense" is overrated. Philosophizing and introspection are for everyone, I think, and if people knew what the hell they even thought and wanted, beyond what whatever dogma they pick dictates, I think the world would be a better place...a more truthful one, at least.
I am the enemy of only those who rely very heavily on knee jerk emotional reactions and assumptions that they won't let the target correct--and, frequently, the enemy of categorization; I'm ssoooo done being told by people who can't who I am, how I feel, what I'm REALLY saying, why I am secretly lying when I DO agee with them or change my mind, but stupid if I don't, and why the strawman they just invented (because that's ..not me bro) is wrong and is a bad person for all of it..... ( Ik I sound like a redditor all LOgic aNd ReAsON, AnAlYsIs but....like. yeah. Logic, reason, and analysis.....ascribing those concepts to idiots and making a negative outta the most productive and civil way to interact with other humans is, and has always been, propaganda; if we aren't safe to counter attacks on our character, we are not safe in our connections...we are not safe, period. Therapy speak and accountability language are being abused to...abuse the abused. Scapegoated too many times to count for reasons that genuinely never fit the situation I was in, would never apply to anyone else, and never made sense, lol..) if you like thinking and thunking and having a brain, I will like you, regardless of whether we agree on everything.
I am always been dogshit at putting myself out there (even though I've been OUT THERE in the literal sense and in the weird sense)... For a while I worked w people on their branding for social media and I did a very good job but constantly working for others for very little in exchange meant shelving myself .. blind spot in promoting myself and never seem to be able to get out of survival mode long enough to make connections. A lot of my friends are also dead, and a lot of the others demand total sobriety..often AFTER I arrive. I am beyond pro harm reduction at this point; I'm for Help Expansion..perhaps Fun Engorgement.
I am done going it alone - it's hard out here. I want to be understood as I am, on my terms.
Long time lurker - I did post in the discord a few times though, probably going to get back in there too. I think I had another account here a while back too, I've been Like This for a long time, on and off homeless for a decade now and usually living in my van or couch surfing somewhere or another.
I have lived all over the continental US, but I have had a hard time finding community and friends who get me.
Recently, I lost my van. Which sucks, because I have about one vanful of stuff. I have been spiraling ever since.
I have a plan to get a place eventually where there would be ample couches for crashin.
I will definitely make another post about that that's less full of ME but this is supposed to be my intro I'm posting the whole damn thing
If u wanna hang out. Got a place. Start a cult. idk let. s goooo
both photos are me lol duality of (wo)man
