LosSanfranistan
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I'm a senior in highschool, just a few months away from graduating. Like every other goddamn teenger out there, I have zero direction in life. Zilch. Nada. No sense of the future or myself, just dragging myself through every day. I've always dreamed of packing up my bags and leaving on an adventure, meeting new people, and seeing parts of the country you can only get to on a train.
For the year or so I've been wrestling with what I want to do in the future - that thing people call a career. Makes me feel weird to think about. Doesn't matter to me if I like what I'm doing, there are still the issues of a fixed location, 8 hours a day of the same thing with no breaks, monotony galore. My parents are constantly pressuring me to "GO 2 DA UNIVERSITY, GET DA JOB, AND MAKE DA MONEY DEN YOU GONNA B HAPPY". They seriously can't see how someone would be happy otherwise. Fuck that noise. I will be depressed forever if I'm forced into such a structured, robotic existence.
Mind you, I don't feel the desire to become a nomad, a hobo because I feel like I have no other options. I have other options, and I'm very thankful I do as many others can't say the same. I just WANT this life for myself.
I guess I'm just an angsty teenager, but how can I ever be satisfied doing the same thing every day, working for someone else's gain, waiting for that two weeks vacation every year where I'd do the same things I'd be doing every day if I were a nomad? Why wait so long every year, while slaving away, when you can live a life that provides you with amazing experiences by just waking up to a new day? Why live a life where I die before I take my last breath? Why should I wait until retirement to do what I've always wanted to do, when I can do it now while my body is still young? I can't be confined to an office space, grappling with the social pressures to be a robot and my desires to run free.
For the year or so I've been wrestling with what I want to do in the future - that thing people call a career. Makes me feel weird to think about. Doesn't matter to me if I like what I'm doing, there are still the issues of a fixed location, 8 hours a day of the same thing with no breaks, monotony galore. My parents are constantly pressuring me to "GO 2 DA UNIVERSITY, GET DA JOB, AND MAKE DA MONEY DEN YOU GONNA B HAPPY". They seriously can't see how someone would be happy otherwise. Fuck that noise. I will be depressed forever if I'm forced into such a structured, robotic existence.
Mind you, I don't feel the desire to become a nomad, a hobo because I feel like I have no other options. I have other options, and I'm very thankful I do as many others can't say the same. I just WANT this life for myself.
I guess I'm just an angsty teenager, but how can I ever be satisfied doing the same thing every day, working for someone else's gain, waiting for that two weeks vacation every year where I'd do the same things I'd be doing every day if I were a nomad? Why wait so long every year, while slaving away, when you can live a life that provides you with amazing experiences by just waking up to a new day? Why live a life where I die before I take my last breath? Why should I wait until retirement to do what I've always wanted to do, when I can do it now while my body is still young? I can't be confined to an office space, grappling with the social pressures to be a robot and my desires to run free.