Welcome to STP. I too am sober & usually travel solo. #ridesoberridesolo I think that Sobriety is the natural evolution for any traveler who hates their existence & wants more substance out of life than just substances. I have no tolerance for drunks, junkies, thieves or bullies. I have a real small tolerance for young drunken travelers especially. they always know it all but somehow want or need my help. I dont understand the group mentality & dont mind kicking it for a little while but it always seem sto lead me to be like ok, Im outta here; Peace! Most travelers in groups suck & feed off of each other's negativity. I try not to isolate myself away from other travelers when I am traveling but I keep myself sane & safe first. I know when its time to kick rocks & leave the lost & confused in their own misery. I love the solitude some times since I am housed up & very much a communal being while at home.Still though too much solitude & I start talking to the grainers (out loud).
I dont think its a holier than though attitude to have either. It is self preservation & at times I feel like I am higher on the evolutionary food chain by simply stopping drinking & drugging. Just more evolved not really better than.Its so much more than the booze & drugs like the behaviors, the anger. the fighting & stealing, the scamming & loneliness. Fuck all that noise. I finally am ok with me & my life. I aint judging others who havent grown up or figured there is a better way but I also dont have to sit their in their life watching reruns of my own misery. Misery loves company & if that means that you are happy while alone than fuck em all. Keep doing you. Theres some other sober travelers around , im sure. Im sure that if you are a chic than you have to deal with dudes wanting to be emotionally or sexually connected as road dawg but that is true for both sober & non sober people.
I am a part timer anyway. I got a wife, kids & an apt. I cant even imagine the loss that you have from losing a kid. I almost lost my daughter to cancer & that almost killed me in the process but also lead me to my eventual sobriety. I now appreciate all the simple things that I do have. I dont have tits so cant relate to that aspect either but Im sure that there are other sober people who you can connect with. I still travel a few times a year to recharge my batteries but I dont just wander aimlesly as if I am lost. Hell I know exactly where i am now. nI am finally Happy in spite of it all & myself. I once sabotaged everything & now I dont have to improve or fix everything, just accept it. I stopped sabotaging myself & seems like old hobos dont die they just get sober, show up & grow up.
Happy Rails
Thanks highway man first Im so happy your little one survived the cancer I can imagine that would throw a hell of a change in you or any parent. It is all about gratitude these days for me every little thing every breath every sunset. I agree with damn near everything ya said about young kids etc. I dont understand why working and showers are such a negative thing to most? And stealing? I dont steal from people its called do unto others as your would have them do unto you. Where did all the damn common sense go? And your right most male travelers I do run into want to ride with me before I just didn't trust anyone now my ex kinda left me with a bitter taste in my mouth about relationships. And honestly Im not the type to just hop from man to man. sex is a very emotional thing for me the cherry on the cake in a relationship and I could never just sleep with someone I just met. Drunk or not. At 31 im STD free and plan to stay that way. Ive met a very few sober riders but ya never know! I think were all wingnuts some people hide it better is all. Talking to grainers I hear ya you can always tell Ive been solo for too long even Fred gets tired of hearing me. I enjoyed reading your reply thanks again.
