Big George W

I was born on this Earth on March 18th, 1965... in a place called West Berlin, in a country known as East Germany, which was surrounded by a wall.

Much of my life from that moment on up until 1987 was in a neighborhood called Bay Ridge, in Brooklyn NY, and during that time - I really was able to immerse myself within the urban art and music scenes that were occurring, which was marvelous.

The last time I was back to where I was born was in 1981, hence the divided city that I once knew today no longer exists.

The last time I was back home, was probably about 6 years ago, and that I am happy to say has changed for the better.

However, the last time I hung out in NYC was back in the late summer of 1995 when I brought Leslie Leeds to see what the Big Apple was really like, places like the west side below 42nd street, Greenwich Village, the East Village, SOHIO, NOHO, and last but not least Chinatown, and by that point much of what I once knew about NYC was already changing, and not for the better.

I've lived in Connecticut since 1987, and in this house since the mid summer of 1991.
It has been a home, a recording studio, an art gallery, a place for parties, a place where everyone could call home including stray cats, and other creatures great and small but for the last several years it has been more of a place where I could reflect upon my life, and focus on a new path as I close in on age 58 faster than I would like.

Adopting a dog who was rescued out of a pound where she was "to be destroyed" by a human who really was doing this poor animal no favors was to be a major defining point in my life, the second one actually - the first one being getting kicked out of Bishop Ford CCHS back in 1982.

Loki the dog taught me more about Love and Compassion than any other human could every possibly achieve, and as she is now 15 years old, I can't help but wonder what life will be like once she has left this Earth.

I earlier mentioned [the poet] Leslie Leeds...

When Leslie chose to leave this Earth in 1996 a couple of days after Groundhog Day, my life had changed forever, and went from being engaged to being alone in just a few short moments, and this was something I never completely recovered from,

Once her father passed, who viewed me as his beloved son-in-law right up to the very end, I thought I might find myself open to another relationship, but after several attempts over the years, I feel it is best for me to remain solitary.



Today, my life is spent in a very different manner than what I was once known for.

Today, I follow a diet that can be considered Ital.

Today, I truly believe that a sentient being includes every conscious creature, and go even further to the point where I truly believe that everything has some conscious level within it, including objects like stones.


Today, I still believe that all life on our planet is completely dependent on how us humans treat our ecology but am now having that sinking feeling that we have sadly passed the point of no return, however this should not stop us from defending what is right and what is necessary when it comes to our Mother Earth and all of her lifeforms who have no voice.




Today, I find myself immersed in both science and art, and find myself also both fascinated and captivated by Sufi Islam, Judaism, and early Christianity, especially in but not limited to Ireland.



Today, I truly believe that Love and Music are the most powerful forces in life as they have the ability to heal and unite like nothing else, and it is my aim in life to pursue this direction.


Today, I am at a point in my life where it is necessary for me to live a solitary existence, as far as relationships with other humans go.





This is due to a long term goal of becoming one with nature, with the elements, and with God.



*updated portion.....*


Today, I said goodbye to the best friend I ever had,.

As Loki crossed the Rainbow Bridge, the heavens wept, and my cut flowers promptly keeled over in their outdoor vases

Today, a major chapter is my life comes to a close.

There was life before Loki, which lasted from birth to 01 February 2010.

From February 2010 until June 2010, Loki had slowly become a part in my life, and from July 2010 until about an hour ago, the most important reason for living, and learning.

The big thing Loki taught me was love, and forgiveness.

I am convinced after having Loki living with me for over 13 years that there is no such thing as a bad dog, only bad owners.

With Loki now gone from me after 15 years and 6 months on this earth, I can honestly state that up until crossing paths with me, she suffered.

With me, Loki went from being a dog of chaos to a very loving loyal dare I say gentle family member, of who I was completely devoted to.

In the end, Loki did not suffer although she was starting to suffer due to old age.

Now, my best friend is far away far away but she is still alive, as she will always live within my heart forever.

What will happen to me as I now enter the final chapter of my life ??

Will I be ok ??

I don't know.

All I know is adopting Loki brought [by far] to me someone who became the most important part of my life.


So, there it is......


Have a Gentle Day.

Enjoy what Life has to offer, while making each and every moment count in a positive way, regardless of your present circumstances, and understand that at times it is necessary to suffer.


Blessings and Hugs XOXOXO

Big George + Loki the Dog, who is now far away far away.....

07 August 2023

East Derby

Big George + Loki the Dog,,,,

"If one is to lead, they must then lead by example, and be willing to suffer and be persecuted."