My own sincere opinion:
In Feb of 2010, I came across a with pitbull that had one blue and one brown eye.
How ??
Well, a woman I was involved with got her out of pound, as she was a to be destroyed dog.
I'm not going to lie: I was scared of this dog.
But I already had a sinking feeling that somehow, she was going to wind up with me.
Some time passed, a couple of months... and the dog along with it's owner were living in the house behind me.
Now, I was a cat person - but this poor dog bonded with me, and truth be told I saw that she was not being cared for right [20 - 22 hours in a crate is not cool....]
So, after a while the dogs owner [we were at odds by this point] wanted to get rid of this white pitbull who was just a little over two years.
At first, it looked like a traveler was going to get her - but I was not cool with that.
Then, I saw a sign at the factory we both worked at that said free to good home, and that was it for me, I decided that I was going to give this dog a new lease on life.
I seem to think this was easier said than done at first, as the dog did have some concerning behavioral issues at first, but the dog really wanted me to rescue her, and so I did.
For about the first week or so, it was for me very stressful as I wanted to do this right.
This also required some major changes in my life, the main thing being shutting down my recording studio which I spent close to 18 years putting together [it was/is analog, big open reel tape machines... real nice vintage [1960s/1970s...] gear.... and I closed the studio for the sake of this dog.
Going into this, I knew ten years right off the bat would belong to my dog, that I was going to give everything up.
No more 12 hour kayaking trips, no more 500 mile day trips... everything now was going to focus on my new pal, a pitbull named Loki.
By the time my profile picture was taken, me and Loki's former owner were at complete odds, and she was preparing to go to Seattle which she may or may not have done, as I lost contact with her...
What at first was a cause of great concern [adopting a pitbull as my first dog] ended up becoming a huge blessing, and my dog even got me to completely stop drinking to excess, which was no small miracle.
We did alot together while she was young, hikes, kayak trips - all short, and I could see that she was happiest once back home, as all my dog ever wanted was a home where she could be safe and sound and free [no crating, none of that shit....]
Of course, Loki came with some aggression issues so I learned very early on to keep her away from other dogs.
I also never bring her to stores.
But we got to do things in nature which none of us would have ever had the chance to do otherwise, and for me - this turned my life on to a completely new positive path.
Eventually she could be let go in my yard, completely fenced in - and she would not try to escape - but she would most certainly guard her turf.
When she is out, I am out, and when I am cold she is cold - meaning I treat her the way I want to be treated.
My pig shaped friend is now coming up on 12 years old, and we are both slowing down together.
Recently I saw the film a dogs purpose, along with a dogs journey, and my dog Loki soaked up a whole bunch of tears because I started to wonder if there was something to Loki coming into my life, and as time goes on, I cannot imagine life without her.
Where I am going with this: it sounds like you got the beat friend you'll ever make or have.
If you truly believe that when you adopt a pet it is for life, then you will change your life for your dogs sake, just like I did.
If you feel otherwise, and that's fine - by no means am I passing judgement friend - but if you feel otherwise, then you need to acknowledge that your beliefs have somewhat changed.
I could go on, but I want to now spend some time with my friend outside now, while I do some things in the yard and then we will go for a short hike together.
But I know how you feel - I totally changed my life around 180 degrees, totally.... in that many of the things I used to do I had to completely stop doing BUT lucky for me, I was at a point in my life where positive change needed to occur, the thing is I did not realize this until I had my dog for a year or so.
Maybe if you are real lucky you'll find the right person for your dog if you truly feel it won't work out.
I know the person I adopted my dog from made me promise her on some things, and man I wish there was a way I could tell her how well Loki has been doing, and how Loki is truly the best dog in the world.
Good luck friend, and if you have any questions or want to learn more about how my dog changed my life I'd be more than happy to tell you about it.