i'm not siding up with anyone, but.. when i hear specific advice for somebody else that i personally should pay attention to, it seems like it might have some serious nutrition somewhere beneath the toothcrunch..
Wind?
i'm not a mod, so i haven't taken up their responsibilities as the thrust of this community..
nonetheless, i generally find your posts valuable, but i'm not doing the work of evaluating content..
i think everyone here who truly contributes to the honest, intended dynamic of this site fucks up on occasion..
sometimes pretty fucking seriously.
that's just factual, but we still remain friends.
content on StP is pretty well much proves it to be one of the *most unmoderated* cultural forums i've come across..
i mean.. it doesn't have the psychotic rantings of some threads on craigslist, but as far as being able to participate, there aren't a whole lot of ground rules (if any) that really fall outside the realm of common sense..
it may be that very freedom that makes it tough to understand when our inner prejudices start to express themselves in a harmfull fashion..
conversely, in honesty, (though others may disagree strongly) i do not think i have seen moderation that is anywhere *near* what would be called policing, and frankly i don't think anyone here gives enough of a fuck about this site, matt, or any particular individuals that they would give a shit about just telling StP to fuck off & die, if they thought that was what the mods were doing.
we have fun here, but i don't think for anyone other than Matt that StP is, literally, a blood & breath thing.
& matt, no matter how you dice when he uses his authority as the webmaster, here, is no fucking policeman.
not even fucking close, unless you are talking about the cop in the playground..
although.. maybe he's the one keeping the creepers safe.. i dunno.. ; )
everyone.. *everyone* on this site who puts honesty of any kind into it, is a resource.
you have put in a lot..
one thing we need to be carefull of here, is that regardless of rank, content or contribution, is a sense of privilege..
nobody on here should feel that they can bend rules more than others from a sense of greater significance.
nobody's ideas are more important than anybody elses sense of self worth. unless some sociopathic shitturd starts spewing blanket generalities that endow them with a sense of validity, because they are otherwise to fucked up to follow their own internal morality about how much fucking work it is to be kind.
you certainly aren't being berated..
i know what happens with me, sometimes, is that i have my own shit in me which defines what i believe are the most essential moral imperatives which existence should correlate to.
my subjective views of right and wrong, elevated to an objective, existential standard.
that's when shit gets sticky, because with good people?
there *is* a basic correlation, but it's never, ever perfect...
if you can't hold your actual or potential flaws as a candle that sheds light on your own judgement, that's where you risk starting to burn people up with less mercy than they deserve..
*that's* what i get as the gist of this, but i don't know..
i am such a hardcore fucktard at moments that i ought to be lit up with a healthy dose of gasoline..
i came out of a politically conservative family, which although i don't entirely regret, has fucked my head up considerably more than i care to spend the time required to unfuck it, but it is, nonetheless, fucked up.
so.. like a very good & gentle & strong friend has said: i get it.
i get from both perspectives..
the point, however, is that when you have good friends who appreciate you, & they say it would be a good idea if you were to stand down, it probably is..
that being said, i really don't know what this is about, other than from the surface, so i'll just shut the fuck up, now..
c