there was a thread which matt censored, called "hey mister? you aren't a nin(ja), are you?"
(deferring to your offense at the "ninja word".
that post has been deleted in deference to matt's judgement that it was no more than a "flame-magnet", when in fact it had only garned "likes" (other than from one or two who took offense to the *word*, rather than the *content*)
my best recollection, as close to a quote, and as strange as it may seem, here, is that you said "that sounds really creeping creepy. maybe you are just a creepy creep", or something along those lines.
i do not recall for sure that you said "fucking", but given that you did, in fact, call me a creep three times, or reference me to one, is certain enough for me to believe that my recollection of you using the word "fucking" in the same post (as in "a fucking blah blah blah") is probably also correct.
if the server holds the original thread, examine it.
if it does not, then your denial stands, & my assertion, without evidence that i myself destroyed in order to comply with what was, well intentioned or not, a censoring of an honest expression against prejudice by drawing a parallel, stands as indefensible.
but that's ok..
it may be the case that someone else said it, in which case i should be banned, for mentioning an incorrect accusation of that magnitude.
not, however, before i could apologize after enough soul searching to determine if perhaps i am beginning to suffer alzheimer or other age/stupidity related delusion..
but.. it's ok..
i don't usually say shit without justification, & i will be damned if i step down for a fucking internet forum, if it is a matter of my goddamned fucking *manners* being questioned, when we are all *really* supposed to be fighting for our lives, here..
if we aren't, then *all* of this is just pretend, or is no more substantial, really, than, say, instagram..
i will not even say i am mistaken, because i have seen you *consistently* make judgemental remarks against people whom have reported points of fact which are dependent only upon their experience, and not respond to their assertions in the *context* of fact..
that alone is easy enough to provide example of, and if what i assert could be proven by example of *that* alone, then the provision is amply easy enough.. though i would never, never, never deny the expression of any of them, at any time, as a right which you should inherently posses.
so if you want to call me creepy, refer to me as creepy or allude to me as creepy, then more fucking power to you.
& if my saying that these are things that can be said are decided to be things that are merely flames, then more fucking power to whatever idiots think *either one of us* needs to be censored for so saying.
i have people to feed.
i have tents to give away.
i have cars to fix.
i have unpaid fucking labor to perform..
blah blah yada yada..
in the past 2 years & 2 months i have traveled 40,000 miles & not asked anyone, anywhere, for a single penny (other than when i though they might wish i would, that they could confirm their participation in the necessities of the journey..)
i have sheltered, fed, transported & *supplied* not only people who are just on the road, but a number from this very forum, and i have done so with more than words like "creep" or "make your answers more civil"
i have been doing it for *decades*, and the only thing that non-participatory tongue wagging does for me, while accusing me of ulterior motives or otherwise sticking a pin in my ass for the sake of conversation, is to signify to me just how far off the point *all* of humanity is becoming, when anarchists cannot lovingly & respectfully tell each other go fuck off, so long as they are actually doing *some sort* of work which freedom would take joy in justifying..
i'm a creep?
fine.
do you pull over for busted vehicles in the middle of the night that are obviously the home of travelers?
yes?
great.
go fuck yourself.
no?
that's cool too.. whatever you think is best..
you want to call me a rambling shitwad who has no clue about what rationality or meaning is?
i am completely copacetic with that...
the bottom line here, & is what determines whether we are assholes or not, is whether or not we actually represent what we hope is most true..
you say " i love travelers, and i think they should be helped", but you pass them up?
your spit is the color of piss.
you say "fucking dumb kids & dirty old fucks on the road in cars that can't go 10 fucking miles", but you help them get to the next on ramp or show them where the spring has disconnected from the accelerator?
then you are goddamned fucking holy..
if you can't remember what you say, my friend, then you are either talking too much, or talking about too many different things...
right now i have landed, & all i am saying to whomever is on this fucking site is that if they are within 50 miles, they have fucking help.
i guess if that makes me a creepy creeper creeping creep, or sending $200 to a fucking Stp'r who tells me they have broken their fucking foot, then fuck me, & that's ok, because that is whatever anyone thinks..
but do NOT tell me you are about freedom & standing up to the system or the fucking man, when you deny the consequences of what they are doing, or tell me that what i *say* is 'uncivil', just because you don't think it meets your criteria, when in FACT i am laying my fucking ass down to do what you 'say' we should all be doing, when it comes down to helping each other out, when traveling..
shit...
if that's all this place is good for.. for *saying* things..?? then matt? fucking ban me *again*.
i am a douchbag, motherfucker, & proud of it..
the only people hurt are the people i would help, because i know they come from a place i believed was free...
i do not even need my content, here..
there is a road, & there is life,
& that is where you will fucking find me.