Kicked out after mom died

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Hi everyone! My name is Amir and I just joined this website yesterday, I believe. It's been a lot going on all the time literally lol. Anyways, here's my brief background. I was born in raised in the U.S. As a kid and while growing up, I witnessed hardship that a lot of people go through. Raised by a single mother, financially struggling, living in a women's shelter for victims of abuse, moving from apartment to apartment. I remember finally moving to a house for the first time in years and it was a moment of celebration for the family. Fast forward to 2019... I was finishing up a bachelor's degree in graphic design and my mom suddenly passed away. I had already been struggling with my relationship to my mom and mental health and then I was suddenly grieving. Then there was suddenly covid, other loved ones passing away, mental breakdowns, and I struggled through it but finally graduated. Shortly after I graduated and in the middle of my mental struggles, my brother and sister in law who had moved in with me and my sisters, kicked me out of the house, minimizing it and saying that they thought it would be good for me. So I was in a rush to find a place and no less, a place that was "close to home" because my family members who kicked me out wanted to pretend everything was fine and pretend they weren't being cruel. I was stupid lucky to find a place in less than a month and I moved in but I was struggling to pay rent from my work pay and I kept having to dig into savings. I was trying to pursue a good paying creative career by joining a software engineering boot camp and applying to graphic design jobs amidst continuing mental health struggles and financial struggles. I knew that all along, my desire and calling was to help people and in particular, the struggling homeless and starving in our local communities and eventually around the world. I ended up having to drop out of the boot camp 2 days in because my mental health was still a struggle for me and I started having more frequent anxiety and panic attacks and started having full on black outs. Somehow with help from the universe itself, I was able to take care of myself, I tried out multiple therapists, psychiatrists, medications, self-help books and podcasts, spirituality practices and exercise and I finally got to a more stable place mentally. I began going back to my passion and deciding to learn about community development while brainstorming ideas for fully autonomous, self-sustained, environmentally friendly communities. After all that I had experienced in life and all of the studying about communities, zoning law, and homelessness, I started to realize that the system of capitalism is broken with a broken foundation based on valuing a few more than the masses, a hierarchy based on the premise of how much private property you own. After one year of living in my apartment, they raised the rent by $200. And at the same time, I was going back and forth with a pizza company that refused to pay me the amount that was already negotiated during the interview. I decided to "drop out." I called off work without explanation to go attend a protest about the whole bodily autonomy, health care access, and abortion rights that the government voted against and has since made laws in several states to limit people's rights. The next day, I quit. Then, shortly after, I packed up some of my things, donated a bunch, and left the apartment to live out of my van with my partner. So much has happened since then that has continued to open my eyes to the solution that will help everyone: anarchy. Now, I am making it my mission to revolt against capitalism, revolt against the hierarchy, and help people to see and know the solution is anarchy. I want to help people empower themselves and I want to connect with others. I'm not sure on the exact how of taking down capitalism but I know that I need to connect with people and develop a community with them so we can use a diversity of tactics and personal abilities to help empower our fellow humans and get rid of the parasite that is the system of capitalism.

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My name is Amir. I started living in a van after a series of events that opened my eyes to the irreparable issues of capitalism. Now I have found anarchy and I am on a journey to find other true anarchists who are aware that there is no viable "reform solution" in a system with a broken foundation based on corrupt principles.
 

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sorry to hear about all your troubles, and your mother passing away. If you want to be anarchist youre probably already doing enough, you gotta do it for yourself first. I always tried to make anarchy in the states for hating the system when really you should do it to liberate yourself. the government is a tyranny and they will kill and torture people who oppose them. its mad dangerous to be anarchist in this country... still if youre true to yourself and follow it where it applies to you then it will be stoked on life. the system works against everybody who doesnt want to fucking conform!!! sounds like youre fallen on the hard life and it fucking sucks when it feels like everybody around you is doing good and then you feel like youre dying inside.
 

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Travel to Southern Arizona in your van and live in the desert free. Maybe even go to the slabs. When summer comes go live in the forest in Flagstaff or Williams. Maybe go to Cortez Colorado. Monticello, Utah. There are many many ways earn money. Think about things and enjoy every day. Become a nomad explorer or vagabond. Live in your van and enjoy life. There are many tribes of travelers who live in vans. Join a tribe if it suits you. Politics and everything associated with it is a losing battle so don't waste your time. The deck will be stacked against you and life is very very short. Enjoy life and have a good time and live in peace and happiness... That is the goal! 😁
 

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still absolutely no idea how anybody manages to do that. all ive done is worked, tooth and nail, just to survive. and its been pretty well miserable
 
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sorry to hear about all your troubles, and your mother passing away. If you want to be anarchist youre probably already doing enough, you gotta do it for yourself first. I always tried to make anarchy in the states for hating the system when really you should do it to liberate yourself. the government is a tyranny and they will kill and torture people who oppose them. its mad dangerous to be anarchist in this country... still if youre true to yourself and follow it where it applies to you then it will be stoked on life. the system works against everybody who doesnt want to fucking conform!!! sounds like youre fallen on the hard life and it fucking sucks when it feels like everybody around you is doing good and then you feel like youre dying inside.

Yeah the system is definitely structured to punish people who don't conform. I've been able to see a lot during my travels and now I'm constantly working on my own liberation. Exercising, talking more, reading about anarchy. Now at this point, there's a lot that I want to learn about and share on social media to help others to be informed about anarchy, history, and more current events.
still absolutely no idea how anybody manages to do that. all ive done is worked, tooth and nail, just to survive. and its been pretty well miserable
 
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Travel to Southern Arizona in your van and live in the desert free. Maybe even go to the slabs. When summer comes go live in the forest in Flagstaff or Williams. Maybe go to Cortez Colorado. Monticello, Utah. There are many many ways earn money. Think about things and enjoy every day. Become a nomad explorer or vagabond. Live in your van and enjoy life. There are many tribes of travelers who live in vans. Join a tribe if it suits you. Politics and everything associated with it is a losing battle so don't waste your time. The deck will be stacked against you and life is very very short. Enjoy life and have a good time and live in peace and happiness... That is the goal! 😁

Thanks for all the advice! It's funny I actually found out about slab city sometime last summer when I was researching homeless, living rent/mortgage free, and places where houseless people go. I found out at that time that a corporation of some sort was trying to privatize the slabs and develop but idk what ever came of that. I was looking into becoming a community developer or something along those lines (creating a newish job) so I could work with a team to develop new communities or redevelop existing ones. One of my focuses would be to create more sustainable communities with public transportation, community centers and other places for people to hang out without having to spend money, and giving current homeless people places to live. I started looking into the free online resources from MIT for the community development programs and started reading the textbooks they had listed that I could read for free online and from the library. I ended up realizing that there's a lot of laws put in place to separate people, create urban and suburban sprawl, and perpetuate racism and classism, ultimately making it harder for people to develop healthy sustainable communities. I can only imagine the government is going to now continue to make it harder to live off grid or otherwise unconventionally because of the whole class war and the "need" for labor. So I'm hoping to be able to connect with people and make unconventional communities that can act independently from a centralized, corrupt government. I'll be taking the time to learn more, connect to more people, and exchange ideas because this is a big feat. I'm also in the process of writing a book about the things I learn along the way. I was going to start posting it page by page on reddit but I changed my mind because this is a whole journey and I want to look back on my book and then make edits for clarity (since it's very close to a journal), and make organization in the sections. I will probably also make a shorter book that's more to the point about what makes communities sustainable and flourishing, and sharing principles of anarchy. If I'm not about to build full scale communities, I would at least like to learn, help small communities of house less or tiny house people that already exist, and record my findings in a way that's easy to understand and easy to read. Then I want to make it free access on the internet and printable. I feel a strong calling and I'm only 25 so chances are, I still have a lot of time in this life to be able to learn a lot and help others.
 

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Yeah the system is definitely structured to punish people who don't conform. I've been able to see a lot during my travels and now I'm constantly working on my own liberation. Exercising, talking more, reading about anarchy. Now at this point, there's a lot that I want to learn about and share on social media to help others to be informed about anarchy, history, and more current events.

still absolutely no idea how anybody manages to do that. all ive done is worked, tooth and nail, just to survive. and its been pretty well miserable

I've been pretty fortunate and it helps a lot to have my partner to live with. I've found ways to spend less money and I'm getting better at finding spots to park without getting bothered too much. It's always a possibility but I've been pretty lucky for the most part aside from a few mishaps.
 
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Sounds like you're in a better disposition than most of us to do accomplish your stated goals. I appreciate you contributed so much with your intro post.

Find compassion for others where you can but don't forget to protect yourself. You probably already learned that but as an old man I recommend picking up some handy skills or a trade so that when your youthful energy is depleted you can still get by. Good luck and welcome to StP.
 
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I've been pretty fortunate and it helps a lot to have my partner to live with. I've found ways to spend less money and I'm getting better at finding spots to park without getting bothered too much. It's always a possibility but I've been pretty lucky for the most part aside from a few mishaps.

my (very lazy, sorry) response to Sameer’s post about traveling tribes etc.

Ive been working on socializing myself since i left home. realizing early on that i was kind of one of those puppies that didnt get that, growing up. still, even now, 15 years later my only touchstone to that.. to socializing has been entirely through work. the rest of the time i am alone, barring random conversations with random people here and there more than just at a checkstand at the grocers.

so yeah that post was a straightup..kneejerk reaction to the preceding one. just.. how do you all make so many friends man, cause tribes of travelers is exactly what i wanted and even envisioned all these years ago

totally relate to your OP though. so much happens, man. and people out there in the world — or not enough of them in the states — dont know adversity. just like i dont know what its like to grow up in haiti or you know, cambodia or early ninteenth century europe idk. people dont get it. theyve no idea.

but you know what? let them. let them misunderstand, bc i have seen some amazing people. soldiers worth a salute. down this path i chose. whove inspired me, helped me out enormously, to be a better person and a stronger one.

as a young person its your duty in the first place to challenge yourself. but as a young person that has seen real adversity, constant mindf*** and stress.. before ever getting to even be out on your own as your own person it is also first and foremost your duty to take care of yourself. because one day you will more than likely have exponentially more, to give that to your children, your strength.

and to the world.

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